Life Is Cruel With Love....

2006-03-16T19:43:00.000+08:00

its me again. miss u b.

surprise surprise

2006-03-05T18:03:00.000+08:00

SURPRISES...
surprises surprises, this weekend is FULL of it!! this just happened like 30 mins ago.. hafta blog bout it! hehe. i was quietly sitting at my desk doing C4 math when someone knocked on my door, i thought it was my grandma so i asked her to come in but she didin't so i walked to the door and opened it. well what do you know. i had the surprise of my life! Gein, Elaine and of course my hon was at the door!! i was so stunned for a moment. i didn't know what to do. i was not wearing any shirt and is only wearing a darn short gym pants.i felt naked!! :P hehe.. i went to change when they hung out in my room. elaine made more jelly for me. its so sweet of her. hehe. thank you! you rock elaine. you too gein. will miss u guys loads next week.. :( they all sat on my bed and we had a lil pillow fight, girlfriends hitting other girl's boyfriend's head for no apparent reason. hehe. but it was fun. then they used my soft toys that i got for my christmas presents and made them play scissors papers stone. hehe. that was kinda freaking me out. and the worse part was i actually took part too! haha. this was all Gein's idea. he went to pick up El then they gave Zu a surprise too and they definitely surprised me!! muah! love you all! pleasure having friends like you guys.

dinner

2006-03-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

DINNER!! YUM YUM!!
today me n gein was suppose to have dinner out nearby elaine's house but they gave us a surprise!! they actually stayed home to cook for us. they cooked spaghetti with cheese sauce i think..hehe.. dunno what is it called. its so DELICIOUS!! and ALOT!! and i thought the portion we had in kijal was alot.. haha.. michelle n others will understand what i mean. hehe. after dinner they made desserts too!! they didn't let us near them because they wanted to give us another surprise. they dished out an ice-cream dessert, vanilla ice-cream covered in chocolate hersheys with sprinkles of more chocolate toppings and chocolate love-letters!! its so beautiful!! its taste great as well! yum yumm!! thank you honey. glad my gf can cook! hehe. feed me dear!! FEED ME!! wait. it didn't stop there. they also made jelly stuff with peaches and natadecoco inside!! again!! perfection!! me and gein ate it all!! haha.. we were stuffed!! gosh i love elaine's room. its so nice! i wanna swap with her!! after that we went to a few playgrounds nearby to chill out. romantic la.. a dark place under the stars.. hehe. what could we have asked for more? my b had a headache so i drove her to somewhere near her house and gein drove my car and followed us. then we cahnged places. i don't normally let people drive my car. only a handful of people can be behind the wheels. my b, gein, michelle and im waiting to see if elaine dares to drive it. haha. gein stayed over at my place again, we stayed up all night playing ps2 and watchin charlie and the chocolate factory. hehe. we slept around 430. we are zombies!!hehe. this weekend. i wont be here d. hope il be back soon!! :( will miss u guys!!

fishing!!

2006-02-27T17:43:00.000+08:00

FISHING!!!
tat day i went fishing with my dad right after my class at 10. i rushed home anticipating my uncles to be waiting for me to go fishing but turns out that im the one waiting for them. better wait than to be waited for. rite? hehe. around 12, my uncle vincent( related, mom's bro) and uncle michael ( not related, heck of a funny guy, uncle vincent's neighbour) came and my dad followed thier car to PAYA INDAH WETLANDS in dengkil near putrajaya. that place is so beautiful! not as beautiful as the one in ipoh though. CLEARWATER SANCTUARY but i hope one day it will be. we went there and we started fishing. its not the kind of fishing that i had in mind. i thought its the cast and wait kind of fishing but its not!! its the cast and reel back and cast again! like fly fishing! hehe. we spent at least 5 hours fishing but no one got any. uncle michael did but too small so he threw it back in. i nearly got one but the fish is too big and it got under and around some lotus plants and entangled the line before i could pull it up. that was a huge one! but then i kept trying and i finally got one!! first time in my life!! hehe..its called a haruan. i think that is how you spell it. im so happy! then later around 630 another uncle (uncle jimmy , not related, uncle michael's good friend, heck of a funny guy) came and he started fishing. 20 mins in and he already caught 3 FISHES!! i was like WTF!! i claimed those fishes to be mine because he took my hook! haha. evil me. before i started fishing i already told myself, if i manage to catch one, i wont go to taman negara and if i don't catch one, i will go. but since now that i caught one, ITS SO FREAKING ADDICTIVE!!! i'm goin to taman negara d, 3 nights 4 days camping in the wilderness, a place with no signal and fishing everyday!! thats wat i call hardcore fishing man. hehe. im thirsty for more!! muahaha.

pic taken by Fakur ( taman negara ranger that is there to do some research) darn friendly guy.. hehe. he asked me to pose this way. hehe. i look darn weird!that fish will be my lunch soon. fish porridge! muahaha. yum yum.

2006-02-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

muax! its me! hope u dont mind about it. :)

now im going to invade it for awhile. u dont mind rite b?

i miss u.

muax!

gein misses u too.

but i miss u more. ngek ngek ngek.

so now u choose. who u want more? huh?? me or him? =P

*prays hard for him to choose me*

i know la i know la u love me more. muax!

love u too.

ur b.

how wud u like it?

2006-02-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL??
a thought struck me bout blogs.. they can be a perfect place to express your feelings, and its also a good place for others to express their feelings.. knowing how easily blogs can be created, it scares me to find out how the power of blogs are abused..how wud u feel if there is someone out there bloggin bout you? nothin good, only bad stuff?? have you ever thought bout that?? worse if its one of your 'FRIENDS' thats doin it?? how would you feel if the gang you hang out with everyday in college blogs something bad bout you or your friend?? your BF or GF?? how would you feel?? further more, what happens if you found out that someone is bloggin bad stuff bout one of your friend's couple?? what should you do?? should you go tell your friend bout it?? but then it'l only create confrontations between 2 or more parties.. well, let me ask you this, if someone is bloggin bad shit bout your BF or GF or YOU!! would you wanna noe? and find out who ARE your TRUE FRIENDS?? will the one tellin you that there really do exists a blog bout you considered as a TRUE FRIEND?? WOULD YOU WANNA NOE WHO ARE THEY?? they are often not who you think they are.. i personally would like to noe.. so if there are any special blogs dedicated to me.. please let me noe.. there just might be one for you.. if you have things u wanna say bout someone's someone... dun do it to the back!!
again...i wont back stab my other friends but i wont lie to my friends either..

WOULD YOU LIKE TO KNOW?? does it scare to know if your darling has one??

kijal trip

2006-02-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

- pictures are not in sequence!! soorry for the inconvenience caused :P-teddy wants a sip too!!
our sour face when we reached KL..
kijal 2006!! ( from left : mine, elaine's , gein's foot!)
a taste of what we saw during the sunrise!!
aww..... :( picture speaks a thousand words dun u think??
I LOVE YOU DEAR!!
erm.... bad hair day.. hehe.. im watching the sunrise
while we were waiting for the first sunrise! with strong winds!! i like my pose!! haha...yengness!!
artistic picture hey.. thatas elaine sitting there.. my idea!! haha..
freezing cold!!
gein and elaine killing me in the jacuzzi! haha
my idea too!! haha.. after this picture, he ran for cover!! hehe..
the WONG family!!

picture taken on when we were having a break on the way there..

me, elle, and elaine, after our pillow fight!!

KIJAL TRIP 2006!!
on the 10th,
i woke up early today to get ready for col at the usual time of 6! i barely slept yesterday cause was having butterflies in my stomach!! WHY?? cz im so anxious bout the trip!! i spent a long time yesterday packing things to bring.. from clothings,torchlights,hammock,frisbee,sun block, PS2!!(a must!!), n lots of other stuff..so i went to col for my chemistry class at 8.. immediately after class i went to lc to wait for my driver and the gang to set off!! miss my dear so much!! :(

in the bus i sat wif elle n el sat wif gary! we got bored on the bus so we started playing games. i played the 'think out loud' game wif elle n i was like... HUH!!???!! wat da!!! how can they relate my driver (uncle sam) to a lantern, a car and a freaking pineapple!! wat da!! hahah.. then we went on the the bang bang bang game n again they BULLIED ME!!! :( dun make me bang u ar!! hahaha. 2 hours into the journey the bus driver wanted to take a break so we stopped for awhile n we all got off n took pics of the 4 of us. haha. love em'!!

soon after the bus set off again. n we boarded it. and immediately we got bored again. hahah. so we started gambling on the bus wif gary as the banker, we played 'cho dai dee', 'ah ngao' and 'blackjack'.. i won gary rm35! yeay!! for the first time in my life i won!! haha.. with the help of my teddy of course. haha.. i jinxed the cards wif my teddy! hehe.. michelle look outside the window and kept saying!! 'oh!! i see the ocean!! i see the ocean!!' we were at kemaman then i thinik.. we played till the nx stop n elle asked me to switch places with gary. gee... i wonder why. so i had to come up with some lame excuse to change place with him. another 4 hours into the journey and we are nearing our destination point already n we were all so excited! it is raining then so when the bus stopped by the road for us to get down, we got our luggages and ran for cover!! RUN!!!! haha.. we walked for like 5 mins to our apartment and we were already exhausted!! we settled down in the 3 room apartment, 1 masterbedroom, 1 double bedroom, n 1 single bedroom, of course i let the girls take the masterbedroom.. gary took the single bedroom whereas i took the double bedroom. we made ourselves at home and i they said that the apartment looks like a hotel room!! haha.. great!! joy joy they love the place. then i went outside with elaine to pluck coconuts! hahah its her first time! she sat on my shoulder and i slowly lifted her up so that she can reach the coconuts above n i kept shouting to her 'TURN!! TURN!!' hurryin her cz she is startin to hurt my shoulders...heheh.. we plucked 4! n we then encountered a problem.. how to open them!! haha..we tried using my swiss knife, then we tried using kitchen knife.. but cannot.. so i came up wif a brilliant idea!! i did it the monkey way!! i smacked it on the floor till it broke and we faster collected the water.. SUCCESS!!! but we end up not drinking it at all.. hahah.. wasted man.. having elaine not goin to the beach for the past 2 years, she eagerly rushed us to go to the beach. so we did as told! haha.. dai sek le.. its a 5 mins walk to the beach from where we stay but they didn't mind at all.. phew.. i was afraid that they might not like walking so far!

once we got to the beach, the wind was strong, wave was GIGANTIC!! the most spectacular scene iv ever seen in so many years iv been there. really! the red flag was up so we couldn't swim at all. so all we did was play wif the water. we threw sand at each other too! hahah. everyone ganged up on me!! :( so unfair! while we were playing happily, suddenly michelle cried out behind me. i looked n saw her in pain! she was screaming cause she was stung by a jellyfish!! i freaked out!! OMG OMG OMG!!! wat hv i done!! its all my fault!! we settled her down on a bench n i ran to get help. and soon i went bk to michelle wif a buggy to bring us to the clinic outside.. the driver asked us to tell the clerk that its an EMERGENCY!! so i went up to the clerk n said ' KECEMASAN!!' haha.. iv always wanted to do tat.. haha.. ok not funny.. she went in immediately. everyone was staring at us and a few guys came up to me n said, ' sekarang ombak begitu besar masih main air kah??' haha.. i felt so city boy la..like never seen the ocean b4. haha. the doc laid michelle on the bed and then she(doc) said tat she wanna give her an injection then i can see water flooding michelle's eyes!! then we all got panicky n elaine starting singing to her n somehow we ended up singing the cempaka song, of course i jz stood there..but i remember singing my edited version of duli yang maha something something song.. it goes somthing like ' diu ni ah ma chao hai.......' hahah... darn lots of bad words wan. i cant really remember the lyrics d.. but at least it made michelle smile..hehe..the doc jabbed her butt!! haha.. sorry michelle i had to blog this in.. hehe.. then they went bk when i setttled the bill n i tapau KFC for them i belanja them cz i felt really bad.. i ran bk to see how michelle is doin and she got better later on.. so can see that our vacantion got off a bad start hey..
that night, me and elaine planned not to sleep for what reason i forgot. so we played ps2 and we disturbed gary when he was sleeping to play 'spoon' with us. hehe. so sorry again, it was michelle's idea!! hahah. when he was too tired to play, me and elaine went bk to our games, she totally tapaued me in crash bandicoot, :P around 3, we changed a game, we started playin fatal frame 3!! a ghost game!! my GOD!! what happened next is darn scary!! i tot of switchin off the aircon in the girl's room cz nobody is using it, so after i offed it, there was total silence, when i was walking to the kitchen, me and elaine heard a screech coming from the room and immediately my hair stood up!! i turned and faced the room and i saw the cupboard door open!! i was WTF!! and i ran to elaine and cuddled up next to her and i told her what happened, i asked if she heard it as well. she said yes and we ran into gary's room!! we banged on the door till he opened, we ran inside and sat there quietly, michelle n gary was asking wat happened i wanted to say but elaine stopped me cz we arent suppose to talk bout the 'things' in their presence. after that like a hermit, we slowly crawled put of that room and act as if nothing has happened. i later went into the room alone and spoke to 'it' to calm 'it' down, and assure 'it' that we won't stay long.. GULP!!

we waited for our long awaited friend gein! he came down here late. i didn't give him the proper detail of the place and the wrong direction to the apartment as well!! im so sorry!!! hehe. he ended up stranded on te highway and he had to hitch a rode to my apartment! isn't it cool? he finally got to my place around 445! i was scolding wat took him so long!! and he started swearing bout me not giving him the right directions!! i'm so sorry!! hehehe... NOT!! jk.. he brought wine for the trip and elaine's hair dryer!! so me, elaine and gein is up all night playing ps2.. around 530, we woke up michelle and gary cause we are goin to watch the sunrise!! yay!! we wallked in the dark equiped only by our torchlights we went to the beach, the wind again is super strong and there were droplets of rain. we chilled out at the bench by the beach awaiting the sunrise, michelle was argueing that the sun is not goin to rise over there! i was like... 'WATEVA!!' heheh.. she thinks that the sun rises from the west!! my GOD!! jkjk..

we waited and waited...no sign of any lights yet.. then 2 hours later when we were waiting under a small hut where kids play sand, we saw a glimmer of hope!! so we all gathered by the beach again.. disappointment struck us as the only thing we saw was a blue sky! the sun's rays were blocked by the dark clouds. so sad!! so we headed bk..

when we got bk, i went to a shop nearby with elaine and gein to buy some milk and drinks for breakfast. then we headed bk, michelle and i cooked pastas for the bunch.. gary was still busy sleepin! that's when we formed the 'wong' and 'tan' gang.. hehe. the hardworking, helpful WONG gang and the lazy and slow TAN gang.. hehe.. no disrespect k.. i poked gary's ass with a knife to try and wake him up to eat breakfast but it failed, gein thought of a smart idea to wake him up. he took a candy we bought from the shop and went into the room, then seconds later, gary is up and awake!! HAHAH!!! after breakfast, elaine and gein prepared our lunch, tuna sandwhich.. soon we set off for a days fun.. hehe.. we went to the beach and rented 3 bikes, one is a single, two is a two seater, because our lil elaine doesn't noe how to cycle, she rode with me, while gary and michelle are obviously together, so ein got the single one. hehe. we raced! and it was darn tiring. of course gein won la. but between me, elaine and elle, gary, we WON!! haha.. WONG rules!! hehe. we cycled to a jetty nearby with huge crushing waves! elaine sat at the edge of it and i was horrified to death!! gein sat next to her, so sweet. after a while, we went back to the resort, we continued cycling to another spot i love so much! its firther down the beach where it's rather isolated and rocky, we picked up shells there. nice ones. then when our time was up, we headed back to the place where we rented the stuff. wait.. our day didn't end there, we rented 2 ATVs ( All Terrain Vehicle) so chunted!! of course we raced again! haha.. had so much fun there.. i felt my rash appearing so i suggested we get away from the fridget rain and go into the jacuzzi again, without hesitation, we were in and warming ourselves in the pool. the feeling!! OMG!! insensational!!whilst in the pool i took my medication to get the rash away. hehe. soon after it took effect.. warming our body up felt GREAT!! but sadly, we had to venture back into the rain on our back way home, though it was small.. that night we had dinner outside..chinese food. we couldn't finish the crab so we tapaued it back but we still didn't eat it at the end..
haha.. that night everyone was exhausted!! but we challenged one another not to sleep. hehe. me and elaine was already dozing off now and then. haha. but that GEIN i tell u, he doesn't need to sleep one man!! we wanted to watch long kong, a thai horror movie but my ps2 couldn't play it because its a vcd. so we ended up watchhin BIG FISH!! a weird movie. its so boring that...that...that.. i fell asleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( and gein took pics of me sleeping!! so violated!! ahhaa..jk.. after i slept, elaine fell asleep too!! haha.. gein stayed up to finish watchin that show and he even continued watchin another movie, deuce bigalow european gigolo.. haha.. he woke us up later around 630 to go watch the sunrise, its was already last minute, we thought that we wouldn't make it for it d but we still went, only gei, elaine and i went, michelle n gary were too lazy ( the TANs lo...) hehe.. when we got there.. OMG!! its so beautiful!!
that time we saw the wave aren't big anymore so again we decided to head back early, call the other two and then head out again, today our breakfast is provided by gary and elaine's hardwork. elaine made soup for us, ang gary made fried sausage for us. i ate alot!! cause i'm very hungry!! hehe.. we cleaned up the place afer breakfast and we went to the beach again, this time we walked along the beach and picked up sea shells and i found lala on the floor, live ones, i caught it and showed it to them. it's their first time too!! happy elaine?? haha. we walked to the spot i like and we found more lala on the way there. i think it's their mating season!! jeng jeng. hehe.. i picked up alot of nice shells and i gave some to elaine. we got to the end of the beach d and i realised that i didn't take out my medication!! OH NO!!! how?? soon i found myself experiencing the consequences!! the gang decided to ciao bacak early. so we did! this time we kinda swam in the sea and we played american football. everytime gein got the ball, id charge towards him and wrestle him down, haha.. i think he drank a few gulps of sea water. hehe.. so fun la.. gosh i miss it so much!! we dipped into the jacuzzi again ( we are so addicted to it!!) they were all staring at my rash, can feel their pity for me actually. hey all kept quiet not knowing what to do. it was gettin late so we went back to our room to get ready and wait for the bus. gary and michelle went back to the hotel later to bathe there causes they like the water pressure there. whoah.. so free man they all .. haha.. we went out to the KFC there to tapau some food while waiting for the bus. and im so pissed cz i ordered the wrong food and i can't change it!! waste of money!! argh!! and then michelle spilt my coke on the floor!! WASTED AGAIN!! while waiting for the bus, we gambled again and i won elle's 5 bucks and owe gary 5 bucks so no win no lose la.. haha.. michelle kept saying that the bus is over there though its not a bus at all!! so we decided o shut her up cause she is jinxing us. hehe. guess what!! when she didn't say anythin, a bus came 2-3 mins later!! i sat way behind cause i see gary n michelle are so close d and elaine and gein also so closed together d.. and dun wanna burst their bubble so i sat alone behind.. kinda lonely.. msged my darling!! goin to see her soon!! :) yay!! miss her so much! during the trip, they called me over to their place so i did, i sat on gein's seat while he sat with elaine on her chair... awww... so sweet... HO LUM AR!!! we gambled again and gary was to banker.. we were making so much noise on the bus!! so sorry other passengers!! hahha.. i think the malay sittin next to us is jealous cause he cannot gamble.. haha.. thats what gein said. when we reached a rest place, we drank the sparkling juice that elle brought for us. when gary popped the cork and started pouring the juice, a malay came over and said that we are not suppose to drink it here.. i was like.. wwat do.. its only grape juice la.. we told him that its not alcoholic and he just continued standing there. i was gettin so pissed then good thing he left.. haha. we drank happily then. and hours later, we are back in KL!! :( miss u kijal!! we'l be back soon!!

HAPPY CNY

2006-02-05T14:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! ..... or not.....
ooo... iv been gone for so long.. im so lazy to blog already.. hehe.. hope u peeps out there had a great blast on your cny.. hehe.. wat happened during my cny?? let me see... i went bk to my wonderful wooden kampung house that is slowly being eaten away by termites ( sob sob!!) u can actualy heart them hapily chewing the wood inside door panels, n walls!! my goodness i hope i wont have to come bk one day to find mmy grandma flat on the floor... hehe... choi choi choi.. touch wood... hehe.. i LOVE my grandma though she is illiterate.. she cares for us so much!! she is the best story teller ever!! on the night b4 we left kluang.. she stayed up till almost 2 to tell us bout her past.. she kept talking or hours non-stop... she talked bout how she was suffering because of communists, n how her mom wed her off.. n my gosh!! i din noe this.. she is a twin!! her other twin sister has been given away on birth because her mom couldn't afford caring for two childs.. so sad :( imagine how tat other twin would feel now.. no family background, no sister, no family!! :( alone on CNY!! but word has it that she got morraied to a malay guy n she had 7 kids.. but no one could find her.. my grandma din even wanna find her for some reason...all her suffering touched my deeply.. n made me feel so grateful to have what i have now...

n my uncle too!! i love him!! everytime me n my sis goes back.. he'l wake up early in the morning to bring us out for breakfast to eat thossai at the kluang train station!! yay!!! he sek us alot!! i miss him... he will always leave his moustache whenever we are around cause he can then use it to rub it on us to either tickle us or irritate us to make us wake up.. i dunno which. hehe.. but its fun!! hahah.. he bought us so many fireworks!! so nice of him.. speaking bout fireworks.. this year we were caught playing with fireworks.. so my uncle gave the two 'corrupted policemen' a RM5 ang pau each n a few mandarin oranges.. so nice of him.. if it was me.. id rather take the ticket n call the real 'rasuah police' n report this to them. haha..

i gambled with my two cousins n i end up losing around RM40 bucks.. so sad!! n it got worse.. yesterday i had a party n invited not many.. jon, eugene, joxy, michelle, elaine, gein, steph, justin n of course my darling over.. we had dinner first.. then there was lion dance in our house.. it blessed the whole house!! yayness!! but.. did it work?? read on...... then according to puss, by touching the lion's horns, it'l bring u good luck!! so i touched it!! yayness!! but.. did it work?? read on...... then after the lion dance was over.. we had a spectacular fireworks display right above our heads!! so lovely!! n then the other kids started to play with my lifetime savings of firecrackers... its all gone!!! :) happy to make other ppl smile.. hehe... then the gang went into my room for some gambling sessions.. ok... heres the interesting part!! on the first round.. iv won RM8!! so i thought holy cow!! im so lucky now!! BUT THEN!! so i played on n on n on .... i became the banker of course.. then.. i end up losing approx. RM100.. too gein n jon mostly.. jon won around RM89 is it?? i forgot.. haha... he's so super lucky.. envy him.. i aint gonna mess wit him anymore!!! :( its ok though.. he needs to retake his chem next sem.. so i guess im doing him a favor of lightening his burden.. hehhe. this is wat i call pumping money back into the economy.. :) after the games, i was so sad!! my wallet suddenly felt so light!! sob sob.. sorry u guys if u guys expected more from the party.. jon n eugene regreted coming cz there were better places for them to go.. eugene was suppose to vist his relatives n jon was suppose to be with red bean... sorry for being the spoiler...

after that eugene n gein treated me to yam cha in 'ming tien' in taman megah!! i was so sad tat i drank 2 big glasses of watermelon juice!! haha.. then i fetch eugene back around 1230am.. i was afraid tat the police would catch my speeding so i turned off my light so that they couldnt see my licence plate n so i sped.. around 120km/j coolnesss!! i think i made eugene wet his pants.. haha.. i love this part where i was slowed down by this singaporean driving a merc so i tailgated him, then i suddenly turned my headlights on n then i think i scared him n he immidiately swerved to the other lane!! then i offfed my lights again..!! hahah... sorry zu.. :( wont do it again.. without you.. hehe.. muah!! miss u!!..anyways i reached his house in minutes n he had a new hairstyle by then cz we opened the windows n he stuck his head out of the sunroof.. hehe..after that i drove bk to my house which only took 9 or 10 mins!! so cool!! this time i went 160km/j on the highway.. not to brag bout it ok... but it was darn cool!! hehhe.. reached home.. played some ps2 n slept.. thats bout it!! haha... i guessed i had fun ytd.. get to spend my time with my friends... though i didn't have much.. :P

i miss my darling!! things are getting better between me n my angel.. :) love her!!

over n out,
sam

who is who?

2006-01-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

WHO IS WHO???
ok.. now tat saga bout the rather weird and twisted love story has ended, and how some of you assumes that you know who is who?? well..lets put you guys to the test.. hehe.. ok.. who is
BOY A, BOY B and so on and so forth?? and GIRL A , GIRL B..... hehe.. if you guys can get it right, il give u guys a treat or two..WHILE STOCKS LAST!!! hehehe... just tag it in my tagboard... ok?? heheh... good luck!!! GIRL E!!! if u get one wrong u owe me 10 nasi lemaks ok?? hehehe... is BOY F BOY F still under your pillow?? heheh... all the best in all your exams oK?? ALL OF YOU!!!

over and out.
samuel

stress!!

2006-01-15T03:16:00.000+08:00

STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!
just to let u guys noe.. its 330am now.. im not gonna sleep tonight.. goin to study whole night!! muauhahha.. wish me luck ok? hehe. just wanna blog a little now. its been so long since i last blogged! haih, im darn stressed now! i can feel my eye bags forming under my droppy eyes. sad isn't it? i have exmas 3 days straight! monday i have one paper, tuesday i have two, and wednesday i have 4!!! oh someone please kill me. i'm so scared now. haih.
i just celebrated my dad's 50th birthday and i bought him a mug and one for my mom too. i bought them from ROOMS in 1U. its special cause there is KING and QUEEN written on the two mugs!! hehe. one for mom, one for dad! so they wont fight over it. hehe. yeah!! i kissed my papa.. haha. his moustache was in the way! hehe. it was so itchy! haha. i bought him a tiramisu cake from secret recipe. it was too creamy! even for me!! after my supper i wrestled with my lil sis. hehe. i dragged her around the living room! muahaha.. i'm such a big bully. hehe.
well i guess the word is already out bout my lil confusing love story. hehe. wat happened to BOY A and GIRL C?? well.. hehe.. i guess its a little obvious now. hehe. well ready for the shocker? hehe.. well, BOY A and GIRL C has been together for one month d! nobody knew!! hehe. sorry guys. not that i don't wanna let you guys know but we wanted to keep our relation LOW PROFILE!! hehe.. i guess its anything but now..
what is keeping me from goin on now? well, the thought of having to spend my time with her after exams in KIJAL, terrengganu, by the beach.. walking by the beach under the moonlight, with cooling sea breeze blowing in our hair, and feeling the fine sand between our toes gazing at the stars above while listening to the crushing waves.. whoah!! so romantic!! i can't wait to go!! hehe.. ok i think it's time for me to continue my studies now. c ya..

missing her,
samuel

a girl worth loving

2006-01-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

A GIRL WORTH LOVING...
how do you determine if a girl is worth loving? well, diff boys will have diff answers.. to me.. what is a girl that is worth loving? someone so loyal to fight for you though it might all just be fruitless, one that won't let go of you till the last breathe they take. one that will always stay by your side, understands you and cherishes every moment they spend together. a girl that will kiss you without you needing to make the move first, a girl that will wanna hold your hand no matter what, whether is it when you are driving, walking next to her,watching movies in the cinema, in a restaurant eating dinner though it might mean that u'l hafta drive with one hand or eat a piece of juicy tenderloin steak with one hand!! a girl that thinks almost alike as you..hmmm... can't really think of any d.. hehe...

have i found that girl?? i wish i will someday..

lucky kid,
samuel

sex n prostitutes

2006-01-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

PROSTITUTES AND SEX FOR DINNER ANYONE?
well, what wud a normal family have for dinner? topics about the family's day, what to do during the weekends, what to buy from the super market?? well, for me its something different. today i had prostitutes, topless bars and sex for dinner. hehe. my uncle and dad kept talking bout it over the dinner table. haih. i was so speechless that i just shrunk in my seat wanting to escape that horrid place though it was quite funny when they said some stuff. hehe. i found out that my dad went to a topless bar twice to accompany some high class clients from china before. muahahaha. i oso wanna go!! hehe i noe where to find it. its at the chinatown in damansara utama. hehe. i'm very anxious bout the coming week. though it's exam week, but there's something very special about one of the dates then. hehe. il blog bout it then la.. :) you guys have a great day okie?well, if u guys have read tat tag, some anonymous person has been disrupting it, and sorry if i had used some foul languages, the fact is YEAH i am pityful, i used to seek attention, and i'm lame. hehe. at least i can admit it now. well. i was like that last year la i admit. i can say for certain that no more!! be gone with it!! someone out there is making me WHOLE now.low life scums like you aint gonna change anything ok?? hehe. i'm kinda happy bout that actually, so if YOU hv something to add bout me please do ok?? i'm more than happy to hear about it. :) it'l definitely make me a stronger person. :) thank you so much whoever you are. and if this blog is lame rite? well, i suggest u find a life and read someone elses lo ok? cause you are not welcomed here. :) cheers mate.

over and out,
samuel

stay tuned

2006-01-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

STAY TUNED.....

complication

2006-01-06T01:32:00.000+08:00

.......CONTINUED
dear loyal viewers, i would like to say thanks for stayin tuned!! hehe. firstly i would like to say that i'm glad that GIRL B and BOY D are together now though BOY A would really wish that GIRL B would concentrate on her studies now. and for GIRL A?? well, since this is a new year, and what happened between u and BOY A last year is now gone to past and that is where it'l stay, BOY A no longer feel discomfort in her precense anymore and will wish to congratulate her once again for going after and getting BOY C according to GIRL C, GIRL A is already together with BOY C but then again GIRL C tells me that GIRL A is not!! so what is it now?? oh. i wanna add another few people.. loyal viewers, meet GIRL E and BOY F!! i think recently they have been having some problems but i do hope things work out between them!! they look happy together!! dun stop trying!! you guys rock ok?? and GIRL E!! please don't keep BOY F BOY F ( hint hint- BOY F BOY F is not exactly human!! haha )under the pillow, :( hehe.. i bet that GIRL E knows that i'm talkin bout her already. hehe.
argh!!! GIRL C was mad at BOY A today!! GIRL C ignored BOY A alot and spent alot of time with BOY D and seems to be having lots of fun!! i think BOY A kinda jealous, i asked him if he was, he didn't really know so himself. haha. i've been hearing alot bout my complicating ways in college. well. guys and girls. don't expect the BOYS and GIRLS to be who you think they are. tee hee hee.. expect the unexpected! i'm still wondering if GIRL D will get together BOY E or BOY G!! my gosh!! if i'm a girl or gay, i would so love to have BOY G as my bf!! he is so romantic!! hehe. miss his 'out of this world charm' around college. BOY A misses GIRL C, but BOY A dun wanna tell GIRL C that wor because BOY A is afraid that GIRL C likes BOY D because they were very close when BOY A used to like GIRL B though BOY D is already with GIRL B!! what should BOY A do?? please help him...

BOY A in peril.. help my poor friend please

over and out,
samuel

dear santa

2006-01-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

DEAR SANTA,
i know i hv been rude to u last christmas. sorry for askin for a gun and a bullet from you, guess it was too much too ask for hey. well, i just found greatness and happiness in my life! i'm surrounded by it actually, i was just too blind to see it. sorry to all that i have hurt. this year, i hope they'l think differently of me. hehe. how's mrs claus? hope everything is well in your house up in north pole. aint too chilly i hope. anyways. i do have something more reasonable to ask of you. may i have a NOKIA 6270 instead? :) its so nice!! i love it!! *hint hint.. i want the one in white!! * hehe. i love you santa. keep on HOHOhoHOhoho 'ing' ok?? c u next chirstmas. hoopefully. hehe

ps: il be good this year... i promise

regretful kid,
samuel

new year resolutions

2006-01-02T15:31:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS UNVEILED
the coming of a new year brings new hope and aim in life.. these are my new years resolutions.

1. study hard and get into Melbourne Uni
2. do not get into any more relationships
3. forgive and forget. move on!!
4. don't play so much games
5. drink more!
6. spend time with the one i love by the beach looking at stars
7. drive faster but safer
8. get into SUKMA and at least win something back!!
9. learn to cook
10. don't think so much

hehe. ok. il let u noe how it goes at the end of the year la if i still blog. hehe... c u!! muah!!

over and out,
samuel

love story

2006-01-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

I HAVE A LOVE STORY TO TELL....
ok i just thought about something that has happened to me in the year 2005, its very funny.. i think.. hehe.. anyways, this is how it goes,
people involved in this story is BOY A, BOY B, BOY C, BOY D, BOY E, GIRL A, GIRL B, GIRL C, GIRL D, and GIRL X(mystery girl).

ok it starts of like this, BOY A fell in love with GIRL A, but then they broke up and went to BOY B in a months time, then BOY A was feeling really down and so he broke down and went under the arms of GIRL B, a good friend of GIRL A, and in the mean time GIRL C started liking BOY A, but things were not meant to be and BOY A & GIRL B got together, but they got off with a very messy start and so things didn't work out, BOY A feels really stupid and hates himself for hurting GIRL B, ok at the same time GIRL A broke up with BOY B and is now goin for BOY C( GIRL A's bro's best friend) haha that would be GIRL A's 5th bf this year alone and also happening in the same time BOY D that is head over heels for GIRL D started chasing her aggresively just after liking GIRL X, but then when BOY A told him that BOY A and GIRL B is no longer an idol, BOY D changed targets and went for GIRL B with some help from GIRL D though GIRL D likes him but how some GIRL D didn't ge together with BOY D in the first place?? hmm.., and soon after they got together, BOY A was so confused and lost till the only peron would take him in is GIRL C which only BOY A knows if that she still likes BOY A. and so at the end GIRL B is with BOY D, GIRL A is with BOY C, GIRL D is with noone but i suspect that she likes BOY E and thats why she is helping BOY D so that she wont feel as guilty?? but im only assuming.. hehe.., and what will happen to BOY A and GIRL C?? well.. stay tuned..hehe

COoNfFuUUuSsIinNGGgg???
muahaha... its beta if u have a draft paper to work this out..hehe.. all the best!! love ya all...

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2006-01-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
bye bye 2005 (worse year!!) welcome year 2006 ( hopefully it wont be the worse!! )!!
wat did i do on the last day of 2005? well. its a saturday and so i went for my weekly fencing lessons. and after that i went to 1U for shopping with my wonderful family minus my elder sis that is still in new zealand of course. i went shoppin with dad, we seldom go out to buy anything, heck, we seldom go out at all!! hehe. thats why i was so happy to be aboe to go out with them. we went to Wong Kok for lunch and i had a great time, i didn't really buy anything though other than a box of undies!!! muahaha. ok that was extra info. hehe.. and my dad got a pants, my dad then gave me rm300 to go shop for watever i want. i'm still thinkin bout what i should get. hehe. a new phone or more clothing? hmmm...
i left 1U around 600 but it took me almost an hour jz to reach home which is 8 km away from 1U!! wtf man..so rushy... went home faster bathe then went to pick up zu at her house then i went to my kai mui's house. then we followed her dad to klcc where my kai mui(rachel) has booked a table in a pizza place in klcc. so nice of her!! miss her so much d!! we ate and then before ending the dinner rac's friends took out a cake bought from Chef Jerome!! whoah!! so nice i tell you. that small piece or cake costs rm80!! so delicious!!
around 1110 we started walking from there to a pub called wagon owned by rac's dad's friend.haha. and when we got there a few of us sat down for drinks, all on the house because of rachel.hehe. we drank 2 glasses of wine, 2 glasses of margarita, and a long island, so nice! i thought the long island was ice lemon tea!!haha. ok i admit it zu, i was a little tipsy after drinking that long island but that doesn't mean that you weren't as well! hehe. you can't even walk straight d. hehe. and you talked alot of crap too. haha.
during the countdown, we walked a short distance to a place with a clearing where we could see the fireworks from klcc. its so nice!! they have so many fireworks with heart shapes!! hehe.then after the display, we went back into the pub and continued drinking. and we left a short while later, my dear rac threw up in the car and it was kinda gross. hehe. i feel so bad for rac la cause she has a flight to catch at 10am in the morning to UK. she's over there already and i miss her! HAVE A GREAT TIME there ok?? please take care ok?? study hard ok?? hurry back in april ok? hope you like what i got for you. after reachin rac's house, me and zu went out to a mamak in bangsar called devi's corner with her friends and soon my friends came over too. i met a girl called diana there and she reminds me of this girl i met in kindergarten, her name was diana too. and guess what?? diana is also from the same kindergarten as i was!! so i'm wondering if she is the same girl. hehe. i had a cup coffee there to wake myself up. it was around 4 o'clock d then. and i was very tired already. my gosh, it was so hard driving back, i had to constantly remind myself to wake up every minute. hehe. and by the time i got home, i went online cause i couldn't sleep and i talked with zu using our mics till 6 someting. then only i slept. hehe. now thats how i spent my day. hehe. hope you guys had a great time as well. hehe.

muah!! love you all.. have a great year ok?
ps. i still want my rum raisins!! yum yum!! hehe.. nobody wants to buy for me!! my gosh my hamsteres are so cute!! they keep doing backflips. haha.

new year means new life, i found new life!!
samuel

wake up sam

2005-12-30T11:02:00.000+08:00

WAKE UP SAM!!!!
the world aint what u want it to be!! it never will.. things will never go your way as planned so mind as well sit tight and enjoy the ride!! people will never be what you want them to be, i'm a mistake of nature! never meant to be created, why did i swim so fast and strong when i was a sperm? was i dying to become human to suffer? what was i thinkin!!
i know its okay for people tohide things away from their friends and family, i do too esp my family, there are many things that they never should know. and i also hide things from my 'friends' and NO i'm not mad at her for hiding stuff from me. i'm mad at her for other reasons.. dun get me wrong.

my heart's premature beating is happening more frequently now...this is normal though when its nearing my exams...wish that i die?? bet you do... i do too!!!

for me.. i believe that only in death will you know how really cares for you, well.. right now i'm dying to see who are my true friends..so... C U!!!

crying in pain,
S

viv lied

2005-12-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

SUCH COINCIDENCE..TALKING BOUT LIARS
it gave me a shock, of all the people that had lied to me, it never striked me that she would be the one that will lie to me. it hurt me so much? why would she? it was only a simple question but why must she lie to me? i would never to her!! she means so much to me!! but i was really hurt by her!! :( how could she? haih.. i guess it won't matter much to her. i'm only some 'guy' in her life. no more than that. il still cherish what we had though. il never forget bout her. the times when i went to her place to buy her breakfast, lunch, or dinner. bring her to KLCC to watch movies, went to find her in a far away place, brought her around, cared for her n others, i'l also never forget the times she took care of me when i was sick, when i needed someone, and when i was down. well i guess she has already have someone in her life to fulfil her to care for her and someone she can care for as well, someone REPLACED me. one willl never know how that feels till they really experience it. trust me, u wont wanna feel that, let me tell you what that feels like lar, have you ever felt like garbage? something USELESS? something ppl are waiting to throw away? unloved? they say that you are their friends but just by looking into their eyes, you know that something is wrong. lied constantly! rumours, words, and hatred spreading around your back! passed on from friends to friends, slowly killing and sucking your very life out of you, anyways, mny heart condition is bk!!(unifocal ventricular ectopic) check it up!! its awesome!! GREAT!!its happening to me at nights only apparently. hehe. how i wish that i wont wake up one day.. sorry to say but its true, i've had enough of this world. what's the point!! we live to die! we polute the air, shortening our lives slowly bit by bit, killing mother earth, whats the point in living!! we are all bout to die one day. so WHY FUCKING LIVE!! to hurt and be hurt? we all know that we can't live in harmony and peace. chaos and disaster reigns!!!!!

done for,
samuel

liars

2005-12-24T03:18:00.000+08:00

SUCH LIARS!!
my gosh. one can never know how many liars are around them! people that they think are friends are actually lyin to them in their face and behind their backs! don't you just hate people like that? sometimes you just don't have any solid evidence that they are actually lying to you but they freaking are cause you can feel it! doesn't mean that if you can't see something means it's not there rite? well. i know that you are a freaking liar u ASS. if you don't wanna go out with me when i ask you to, don't give me bullshit excuses ok? cause i always see you damn fucking free if you are goin out with other people. WTF is tat? m i TAT STUPID??stupid i am, but not to that extent ok? just come straight to me la. why? scared? anyways. it's Xmas and it shud be holy.. haha. and yeah!!! ZU IS BACK!! well not literally, she is on the way back now. haha!! yeah!
There are also people amongst us that talk BIG!! saying sweet things to save their face whatever it takes even though it means to say bad things bout their friends adn make people hate them. i hate people like this. if i'm that kind of people, please let me know ok? make me realise please. last thing i wanna be is to be like them. there is this GIRL that used to mean alot to me, now she means less than shit to me. i found out that she has been saying such hurtful and bad things behind my back to all my other friends! for example she told them that what happened between me n her is MY fault whereas she is saying that it's her fault when she is talking to me. like WTF man. all she wants is attention, friends and to be accepted.. well. i know that u r not a christian but we buddhists believe in karma and believe me when i say this. 'YOU'L GET IT!! YOU'L GET IT ONE FINE DAY!! TWO FOLDS OF WHAT YOU DID TO ME!!' not to curse you but you'l see.. so you had better watch your back. stop hurting others while you still have the chance to. ok? no i don't hate you. I FORGIVE YOU.. but you are too much!! ok??

IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY ATTITUDE,
CALL 1800-WHO-CARES!!

over n out,
samuel

cabbie

2005-12-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

CABBIE AT YOUR SERVICE.....
for the past few days, i feel as though i'm like a cab driver for so many, my friends, my sister, my sister's friends, my grandfather. haih. but i shouldn't be angry because i'm lucky to be able to drive and have parents that trust me enough to let me drive out. hehe. i know somebody that their parents are so over protective and scared that their DAUGHTERS(hehe.. a hint) will be caught in an accident. hehe ok la. not all girl drivers are bad. i know a few gals that are quite good. hehe. ZuYi n Lc both drive fast but i'l say that Zu is the safer one. hehe. no offence Lc,Zu still has a clean record. hehe. i remmeber you had an accident when i was in the middle of my chemistry exam and so i rushed out of the hall and went to find you just to find a small dent on your bumper in which your dad finally changed for you. hehe. and oh btw, my results came out BAD!! hehe. i wonder why..I in the other hand, some would say i drive fast n safe, some fast n dangerous, some not fast enough n too safehehe..but i think that i drive like a road hog, a maniac..really fast and really dangerous (but nothing will happen) i need that sense of RUSHhHh in me. hehe. its addictive. normally people that have sat in my car, they say i'm nuts. most of them.hehe. so my car is not for the faint hearted, pregnant, high blood pressure n only for the fit and active youths.. i have a msg for the people out there. do what your parents say. not what they do ok? hehe. im tryin to slow down cause i made a promise to somebody d.

i am fighting a losing battle

2005-12-18T00:11:00.000+08:00

I AM FIGHTING A LOSING BATTLE...
everyday i keep thinkin bout my life, my family, my friends, my studies.. it always comes down to a negative side, haih. i'm trying so hard to fix things but the problems never seem to stop!! it just keeps pouring in!! i'm hanging in there. i feel that a part of me is missing! i need that part back!! when will it come back!! i need it so badly so my pain won't be so unbearable!! i'm struggling but surviving..nobody can understand how i feel now. NOONE!!

~fighting a losing battle~
&
~losing a fighting battle~

in need of help!!
samuel

missing zu

2005-12-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

i'm waiting for u. i'm waiting for u!!!
~dunno wats the song called..hehe~

faster hurry back ok? and dun forget to get my biltongs!!muahahaa.. miss ya lots zu.. everything is diff without ya.. have a great time there ok? go visit my cousins on the trees while u r at it.. hehe.. muax!! we all miss u loads

SUKMA

2005-12-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

SUKMA!!will i be seeing u next year??
haih.. confusion, indecision, uncertainty, anxiousness... will i be able to join SUKMA for fencing next year? well. though undecided, i have already filled in the form to compete in that game. even IF i'm able to make it for the games, will i be good enough by then? is it worth continueing on my training? it's burning a hole in my pocket! help!! what should i do!! somebody please help me think!!

Down and Lonely

2005-12-16T16:01:00.000+08:00

I'M So DowN & LoNeLY!!
my life is looking dull at the moment. oh wait. MY PARENTS are HOME!!! yeah!!!! im so happy! hehe. they bought me lotsa stuff from New Zealand. they bought me a necklace called 'Punamu' or something like tat. it symbolizes strength and determination. its a jade carved by a very famous craftsman in New Zealand. they also bought me a door sign sayin ' SAM's parking only, any other vehiclese will be towed away' hehe. i stuck it on my room door! haha. and dad bought me a colgone too. its giorgio armani's black code. the smell is very suttle. he said that my other colognes are too pungent. hehe. is it? i don't think so. IS IT? let me know please. hehe. other than that they also got me lots and lots of chocolates!! yeah!! time for me to get fat! haha.
thinking about zu in africa. haih. so lucky she get to go there. though i've been there three times d, i still wanna go! and knowing that our time difference is a whoppin 6 HOURS!! its like when i wake up, she jz started sleepin, and when im havin my lunch then only she is going to wake up. haih. so sad!! i miss africa so much! my cousin the baboons. see the resemblance?hehe.
i always wanna go for a holiday! but cannot! have to start studyin d. exam around the corner d. haih. i can do it! il start studyin. after i take a nap, fetch my sis from school and dinner and some tv..hehe..ok then. i better get moving!bye!!

my day

2005-12-15T02:14:00.000+08:00

My Day...
hmm. i've noticeed that i seldom blog about my day. hehe. well. feel like doin it now even though it's 2.15 in the morning.

9.00 a.m:
sis bangs on my door immediately waking me up. for that few seconds!! haha. then i went back to sleep as usual, then i woke up minutes later and i went downstairs to start 'gotong-royong'ing the house with my house unlike soe lucky people that has maids for this kind of situation. hehe. anyways because my parents are FINALLY coming back tomorrow gosh i miss them so much!! i thought that it'l be a good idea to clean this dump up. so me and sis got to work, i'm in charge of sorting our stuff and replacing misplaced stuff. hehe. and she is in charge of cleaning and moping the floor and bathing the dogs. haha.

11.00 p.m:
i got hungry cause i didn't take my breakfast and i went out to buy lunch for me and my grandpa. i ate it in front of my laptop while watching 'Hotel Rwanda' that show made me tear! haih. so touching and sad la. but i love it!! show ended around 1 something and i hurried up to get ready for college. oh. here is the fun part.

2.00 p.m:
i reached col and walked outside my class already then suddenly my friend told me that i missed the class. i was like WTF!! my friend said that Mr. Ling changed the time for our lesson to 12 to 2. WTF again!! i went there for fucks!! haih. i end up playing ping pong with eugene for awhile then i went back home.got home took a nap immediately on the sofa downstairs. somehow i was really tired

4.00 p.m:
woke up and brought my grandfather and my sister to ikea and tesco. hehe. i love ikea. i bought quite alot of stuff for my room and for my grandfather's as well. it cost around RM100++ all together. oh btw, i got the money from my mother's stash of cash haha. i know where it is and u don't!! nenenene boo boo.. hehe. and i know that there is at least RM1200++ left in that stash. hehe. and don't get me started with the american dollars in it as well. hehe. anyways, after ikea, we went to tesco to buy some groceries because my parents are comin back tomorrow already. got milk for my dad's coffee, toilet rolls for our asses. hehe. and others la. can't remember. all of them d.

6.00 p.m:
went back home,unloaded everything and i transfered my computer from my room to my sister's room because i don't need another com. hehe. anyways i already have two laptops to use. hehe. but i miss that com now.. :( had dinner soon after.i'm very worried bout my pet sis's aunt and uncle, the aunt has cancer and is very very ill, hoping for a miracle to happen ( please pray for her ) and her uncle has a very high blood pressure and was admitted to the hospital. haih. things just aren't fair in this world. haih.

11.00 p.m:
i went out to hartamas with viv for supper, and then went to college to teach her how to drive, our second lesson. OMG!! not for the faint hearted man. hehe. my car could have easily ended up on a freaking tree! hehe. sorry viv. but honestly, you are good for a beginner.hehe but u still need polishing. hehe. i'm considering that 3rd lesson. hehe.

2.00 a.m
drove home. and went online to blog. kinda pethatic right my life? it's 2.40 a.m now and i'm not tired at all. haih. the whole day, i feel that a part of me is missing. and i know why. haih. :( keep thinkin bout that empty space there. how?!?!?!haih. get a grip samuel!! you can do it!!

p.s: u r being missed.......
p.p.s: REALLY!!!

over and out,
samuel

my christmas wish list..

2005-12-14T01:05:00.000+08:00

MY XMAS WISH LIST....
this is my FIRST time celebratin Xmas.. so i dun really know what i should be doin other than havin a wish list. i thought i'm suppose to be sending this list to santa claus. aren't i? can i have his address? all i know is that he is in the north pole. hehe. anyways. here is my wish list

.......................( im not goin to say wat this is because i hv already gotten it. hehe. YEAH!!! )
Fiat coupe 2000 turbo!!
a small apartment for 2 ppl or 3.. i like the newly constructed one.. dunno wat is it called but it is RM190,000 oh santa... i want it!! hehe
iPod nano 4GB
Xbox
a road bike
i dun really wish for much..all i want now is for my parents to come back quick and spend some time with them and be happy.. money can't buy happiness..so above all..i want happiness.. which i have found.. :)

have a merry merry christmas everyone!! (in advance ok??hehe)

she's gone

2005-12-14T00:43:00.000+08:00

ZU left!!! HURRY BK!!
she's leaving, on a jet plane and i don't know when she will be back again....
have a safe and wonderful journey ok? u will be missed by all of us.. your outings with them wont be the same without u.. right guys? hmm.. don't forget to get me those delicious biltongs ok? try and find them for me please.. im dyin to have some of those raw flesh im my mouth!! muahaha!!!please be careful of what u do there ok? dun get lost ar.. it is goin to be very cold in the morning ok? so wear a sweater ok? am afraid that u might catch a chill. muax!! have a wonderful holiday zu.. come back safely...

what i look for in a girl

2005-12-10T16:41:00.000+08:00

WHAT I LOOK FOR IN A GIRL
well, you told me that you wanna know what i was thinking about right?well this is what is on my mind now : what do i look for in a girl.. a question commonly asked by the girls to guys. and a question guys have been trying to avoid so that what they say won't make them look like a bad bf or whatever. but do you wanna know what I look for?
ok. here goes, i wish to have a girl that is

always there for me, to care and stay by my side
someone that will tell me what she is doing and how she is doing and tell me all her inner most feelings
not scared of being who they are
not shy to mix around with other people and do stuff
love animals or just don't hate them or are scared of them la
i would love to see the imperfection in her perfection
well, if u ask me, i think that appearences aren't realy important to me anymore, it would be a plus but its not important. i know that by now most guys will say that i am lying but i have come to know that it's not important at all. :)
i like a girl that will listen to me at times and doesn't at times. hehe. because guys too want attention right?hehe.
someone i can let all my emotions out and sometimes let me keep them in at times.
be true and loyal to me. for i will too for her. :)

zu party

2005-12-10T16:11:00.000+08:00

ZU'S PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!
seems like everyone is having a party nowadays. well. one thing is for sure. this is one of the BEST i have ever had in my life by far! her parents totally rock! especailly her mom! her cooking is so good! its so mouth watering! muaahahaha.. and her mom insists zu on letttin us drink alcohol!! isn't awesome?? hehe. well. the party drew quite a number of people. and it started off normal. hehe. it REALLY started when the parents left i think. don n cj they all started playin a drinkin game using carlsberg n tiger beer i think. and i had like 6 shots of sake with zu's parents before they left. oh btw. her mom got 2nd in a drinkin competition. WTF!! haha. she's totally at the top of my ' MOM THAT ROCKS ' list. hehe. the gang drank alot la. and i didn't really join them cz i was drinkin with zu's friends. they invited me to shots of sake, and when that finished, we went to havin shots of chivas regal, and when that finished, we went to brandy. haha. im so sorry zu for using up your parents booz. in total i had 14 shots of sake, 5.5 shots of chivas and 3 shots of brandy.MuahaHhahha. hehe. i was still quite ok i might say. hehe. i know that zu started gettin tipsy d when she starting sittin on the floor and lyin all over the place and banging into doors. haha. i wasnt that far away from her either. hehe. at the end, me and cj helped her into her room and once we dropped her on the bed, she stopped moving d. she's out. hehe. i have finally seen the famous zu drunk!! haha. after she got to bed, i felt better d. cause at least she's resting. and then i think i got drunk..from 12 o'clock to 3 in the morning. i have no idea what i did. hehe. but according to zu's bro the next morning, he said that i was running around the fields that time and i was sleepin in my car. hehe. after i threw up around 3 something, i got better and that's when i started to remember what i did. hehe. i got back to bed around 4 in zu's room cause i dun wanna sleep in the guest room with another guy with vomit spilled all over his body! haha. again, sorry zu for the trouble. i woke up early the next morning to go to col for my mocks! haha. i sort of lost my car keys so i didn't bring anything to col, no pens and calculator for exam. hehe. and i found out that i left my car keys in the car!!hehe. i dun remember that part either. hehe. anyways i did badly for my mocks la. haih. so pissed! anyways,nana, don, me, zu, and a friend of zu all got wasted. hehe. cj n lc were tipsy. thanx so much zu for the party. waiting for the next one. hehe.

lc's party

2005-12-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

LEE CHEE'S SURPRISE PARTY!!! 03 DEC 2005
11.15 p.m 02 DEC 2005
i picked up zu from her house to go give lc a surprise. i picked her up wif my dad's lagreat! it's a monster car!! hehe it rides so smoothly. me, cc, n jean's new 'friend' and don drove so we hung balloons on our cars and set off to lc's house to surprise her. me and zu left early cz they are taking too long. we reached LC's area early and decided to wait for them and meet them at the shell station but then those people ar i tell u. they all went without us. haih. so pissed. nvm. me n zu were admiring the stars. hehe. we met up with them la. and we definitely surprised LC. cc did so many things for her man. so sweet of him. after that we set off to yum cha again. hehe. went back late late late late late.after dropping zu back home again. hehe. so tired. slept immediately
7.30 p.m 03 DEC 2005
im kinda lazy to blog bout LC's party now. cz i think alot of people have already blogged bout it.but i will say a little more stuff la. things that come to mind. erm. me n zu went to penny's house to pick up some tables and chairs. they needed a 'hot' car there to pick things up. hehe. so i went. haha. and then we brought the stuff to central park and set the things up there. cc's friends from klang were so nice to help out. they brought they amplifiers and other stuff for the party. and its a good thing i brought my laptop there. so we can listen to songs while partyin. alot of people complimented on my songs. haha. but i dun think sam liked it. that's probably why she took her cd from don's car to listen to it. hehe. we had chicken wings, garlic breads, marshmallows, mutton, fish, and lots more. penny is so nice to have helped out. thank you so much! and don started BBQing and man was it nice. i heard that he is sick so i took over and didn't want him to get even more sick. and i did i pretty good job myself. hehe. only a few burnt chickens. haha. after eatin, cc gave lc his present, a video he compiled with all of us wishin her happy birthday n stuff. its really funny. and when the video finished, his friends let go two boxes of fireworks across the pond and it was MAGNIFICIENT!!! i am so shocked!! i remember sayin ' cc marry me!! ' hehe. its so romantic la. and all the effort he put into making this a success. we left around 10 something and when i got to my car. i reversed it and it felt funny and someone told me that i had a flat!! apparently some guy or girl punctured my tyre on purpose. haih. more enemies. what did i do this time? i was so pissed i think i scared a few of the girls. i'm sorry. but everything was going so well then i had this problem to screw everything up. haih. i'm sorry LC for ruinin ur bday. i got help from the boys. cj lent me his brick n i used don's car jack. i called my parents in new zealand to help. it was around 4 in the morning there. hehe. sorry guys. then i manage to change the tyre and it was already around 12 something d. vivian wanted to go clubbing but i wasn't really in the mood then d. so i suggested to go yum cha enough d. so we went to 'ming tien' to yum cha. me, zu, viv, lc, shae ree, jimmy, chi jian, don, dan, ponny, and another guy i forgot his name d. me and zu had to leave early cause she is afraid that her mom might scold her for stayin out so late. it was around 2 something when we left. when we got into my car and i was suppose to bring her to her car at jox's house, she realised that her car key is with elaine so she couldn't drive back d. and she was panicin in the car. hehe. so i fetched her home n got her spare key and then all the way back to her car. hehe. i got home around 3 something. was so bummed out man. i showered and it was lights out for me d.hehe.

WE LOVE YOU LEE CHEE!!!! MUAX!!!

over n out,
samuel

missing your singing

2005-11-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

Missing Your Singing!!
I MISS IT SO MUCH!! it has been so long since i have last heard you sing. you are the first person that i have ever sang to remember? in that small box the has two really smelly microphones??with 2 malays singing in their box next to ours?then no matter how i much i begged you not to put the token in, you still did? you chose a song for me to sing but i didn't sing so u sang at the end and you were pissed at me!!hehe. sorry ya. i am a real bad singer! which you found out minutes later. hehe. you slotted in another token and we chose the song 'zhu fu' by i dunno who and somehow i wanted to sing with you. weird rite? you din hafta force me to sing for me to pick up that mic and sing with you. i miss hearing your voice. i could never tell if it is your voice singing or the singer herself. hehe. sound too perfect to believe that it's u. hehe. sing for me again plz? i wont be here forever ok?none of us will..

over n out,
samuel

My life's gone but why shud it stop me from caring?

2005-11-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

My Life's Gone But Why Shoud It Stop Me From Caring?
soon it'l be somebody i now learn to cherish very much's 18th birthday. i know that my life now aint the best but i still wish her the best in everything!! and if i am gone one day, i would just want her to know that i am sorry. haha. i can imagine her scolding me for writing like this. hehe. but she is not talking to me now so i don't think that she cares la. come to think about it. i miss her scoldings so much! haih. i was a fool to have let her go. I'M SORRY!! from the bottom of my darkest heart i am very sorry. anyways. i wish you the best in your upcoming exams and i'm glad that u are have so many nice friends that cares so much about you. :) at least i know that u'l always be happy. so happy advance birthday... one more thing, you won't be perasan if you think that this is for you cause it is!!

over and out,
samuel

Life's a bitch

2005-11-30T20:05:00.000+08:00

Life's A Bitch
*WARNING!!!some of what i say might leave u disturbed so i advice u to stop reading NOW!!*
to me personally..i think in a part of everyone's life,they will reach a point of no return. a point where they loses their savvy in life, a point whereby their soul has been sucked out, a point when suicide seems to be the happiest way out, a point whereby they are so sick n tired of their lives till the extent where everything seems so dull n dead to them, a point whereby hatred overwhelms love n joy, a point whereby typin the words ' love n joy ' make their hearts screech in pain n anger starts to flow through their veins, a point whereby nothing makes any sense, a point whereby his life turns to HELL itself. hope u guys get what i mean. this is what im going through now i guess. why cant i be happy even though i want to be? every smile i give off is nothing but a fake!!i bet some of you guys out there are enjoying this aren't u. dun deny it. im so sick and tired of my life!!nobody can help me. why am i feeling this rage inside me where i feel like jz killing everyone around me?? feel like giving them this punch of reality. especially those that act as if their lives are so damn relaxing!!wake up man!!its not!!nobody can truly cheer me up now. iv been stabbed at the back so many times till i wont even feel anything now if any of u guys do so now. so if u ever felt like stabbing anyone on their backs. this would be a good time to do it on me. is it just me or is it all the boys out there feel that the hardest word is sorry? a sincere apology? i think its hard. but it seems that im so used to it till i am very 'fond' of that word. so if a guy apologizes to a girl but that girl doesn't accept it? what should the guy do? apologize again and again like a total loser putting himself down so low till he stoops lower than the spineless unicell lifeforms on this planet?lower than a piece of shit? i don't think so. will any of you guys out there do so? hmm? u tell me. there is always a limit to a person's patience. mine. i have already lost myself. what more do you wish from my patience?

am i being very sensitive bout everything that is happening around me? somehow i think i am not. how can i when people don't have reasons to do what they do that's hurting me? get what i mean? i doubt it. its just coming through my mind now. so many things rushing through, i'm trying to capture as much as i can. but it's really hard. haih. my life is so screwed up right now. i don't even know what's wrong and what's not? turned into a road devil today. tailgating somebody at 110 km/hr, Zig Zaggin through traffic including a police car, not obeying traffic rules at all, bullying slower cars and putting my 1800cc engine to the test in acceleration. haha. it rides like a babe. but my top speed totally hits the ditch. wanna take me on? not to say that i am having a death wish now but i am starting to live to the motto
'ONE LIFE, LIVE IT!!' so bring it on!!!

my doggie!!

2005-11-27T12:32:00.000+08:00

= sleepy head feel asleep in my sis's palm

= look at his face.. he knows he is not suppose to be there

= devil dog...

= Guinness and my foot!! haha hey look!! it fainted!!

= look how innocent he looks..don't be fooled..

= Guinness sleeping in a bundled up towel!! its so small!!

= stop torturing!! my sis n Guinness

=Guinness sniffing around.. my grandpa's slipper :)

=Guinness on my back while i was studying for SPM haha.. i love this pic

=Guinness sleeping upside down. haha..

cool friends

2005-11-27T11:53:00.000+08:00

haha. pics taken at the party. jox, zu n i tried to pose like how we posed in ipoh. hehe. i look weird!! { happy now jox?? }

SATURDAY CLASS!! OH NO!!
today i went to col!! its a saturday for goodness sake!! hehe. went there for econs class at the main block of HELP. not many showed up. poor Ms. Kimmie. i like her ability to teach and her passion to teach. don't you? anyways. after class we(me n viv) went to wp for a trial mocks held by the law department. went there to witness how funny and boring law can be. haha. sorry guys. so they were doing this case whereby rashwin is accused of attempting to murder zeddeck(his man servant) haha. so funny. when everything was done, it was up to the jurors to decide if he is innocent or not. so i went into the jury room with them cause im not a part of it so it doesn't matter if i am there or not. yay! i was watchin the future lawyers in action inside. zu was fighting verbally inside there because she believes that the guy is guilty. she is so cool! but then there is yao jun on the 'not guilty' side fighting back. they were debating for such a long time inside there. hehe. chi jian was on the 'guilty' side but then he with his 'half wit' mind of his jz wanted to side the majority side so that he can get out of there asap. thats not right man. he should have fight for what he belives in. he doesn't have a mind of his own la. haha. sorry cj. so majority wins and the verdict is not guilty and the defendant team were overwhelmed with joy. haha. and rashwin was wavin his arms in his cubical. haha.

ZU!! YOUR FRIENDS ARE COOL!!!AND FUNNY!!after that i fetched zu and you jun back to main block to pick up their cars. and then zu followed me back to my house when we reached inside tropicana, i let her lead the way to my house. haha. she remembers. good thing. hehe. she kept talking on the phone while driving. haih. so dangerous la. i'm not saying that i don't do it la but i know that its wrong!! haha. she came into my messy room! shit. forgot to make the bed. haha. i never do! haha. she rested awhile after a long day in court. while i went downstairs to have dinner with my grandpa. zu has a bbq party with her ex-classmates later that night. i was suppose to show her the way there only but i end up going there. zu asked her friend if i could go and they accepted me with open hands. haha. so i went to the party after picking up joxy from taman tun. we had fun searching for that house. haha. i'm so good! hehe. found it at last but they weren't there. they were at the playground. so we went there lo. and when we got there,they were just starting the fire. hehe. me n jox n zu went to hang around the playground. me and jox climbed up this big cubical thingy ( btw. jox!! you are so good at climbing!! haha u monkey ) hehe. zu didn't climb cause she was wearing a skirt. aww... too bad. me and jox spent some time up there chatting while zu went to talk to her friends. they are all so COOL!! and very FUNNY!! haha. love that bunch of people. but mostly smokers. and zu's friend (leonard) 's gf is hot!! haha. darn bad man me. everyone thinks so too.when the fire is ready, we started gobbing down the sausages first! and by the time leonard came back from somewhere, there were none left. haha. so funny! he was like in pain man. hehe. i ate lots of sausages, meat balls, a chicken wing and garlic bread that jox n i made. haha. her's taste far better than mine!! not fair!! how come ar? anyways we left early like around 9 plus. they all followed me home. when jox saw my dog, she was so delighted!! she went to touch the dog on the head (bad move jox) the dogs will think that you are trying to hit them if they are not familiar with you. don't you know? haha. then my dog (Guinness) pounced on her. wanting to bite her. i quickly ordered him down. and jox was in a stun mode d. haha. sorry joxy. then again zu brought her to my messy room. haih. we left soon after to tesco. but we dropped jox back home first. zu came with me and my grandpa. she is the first to go shopping with him i think. amongst all my friends la. and my grandpa likes her! said that she has a lovely smile. hehe. after some grocery shopping, we went home, she drove so fast that before i even got home, she's already home d. and i live so near Tesco!! you shouldn't drive so fast! haih. after that, nothing happened d. i went online to chat with her again n slept around 2 when we both couldn't take it anymore. haha..

torturing times,meaningful times,make me stronger

2005-11-27T11:45:00.000+08:00

TORTURING TIMES, MEANINGFUL TIMES, MAKE ME STRONGER!!
this past 2 weeks has been the worse weeks of my entire life. and here i am sittin at my table wonderin if it's going to be worse. haven't i had enough? i was so piss to have found out that such a bitch can influence so many people. that bitch shouldn't have been there in the first place. haih. because that one person, my life is left fallin n fallin n fallin down into a black pit!! my emotions have run dry. im tired of this. i can't take it anymore.
'at times like this, you can find out who are your true friends' -lil-
this is true. i have found my true friends. a handful true. but loyal. others are all actors. because of these actors, i would like to thank you. for making a stronger person. nobody needs people like you. so back off!!

Love is wanting the person you love to be happy.

2005-11-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

'Love is wanting the person you love to be happy.' -lil-
thats the BEST answer iv got so far. hehe. thanks again lil.

links

2005-11-26T00:52:00.000+08:00

Leave a TAG!!
hey, some of u keep askin me to have a chatterbox rite?well?? i do have it! go click on one of the words ' fightin a losing battle' on the left. each word links u to somewhere else. ok? hehe. so leave a TAG!!

you are rite lil

2005-11-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

You Are Absolutely Right Lil!!
love ya!!hehe. thanks for that all inspirin talk we had. it was really lovely of you. i love what u said.
'true that we might not love the same way after what happened but it doesn't mean that we can't love in a BETTER way.'
that totally brightened up my life! i can now look at life from a different perspective!! i dedicate this post for you!! haha. miss ya!

the unwanted one

2005-11-25T18:09:00.000+08:00

THE UNWANTED ONE...
now. what is the meaning of 'unwanted'? well. not wanted. of course. hehe. tats what they gave me in the dictionary.
well. thats what im feeling now. all i do is cause mayhem and destruction between everyone and anyone. haih. even if i AM wanted. i shouldn't be. they dunno what they are gettin themselves into. i shouldn't be missed,loved, or wanted. if your stick with me. somebody out there will hate you. even though that person says that he/she is ok with it. but do you think that she's lying? hmm. that will be a good question. what do you think? i think it's quite obvious. thanks to that someone,i'm left with nothing. i'm unwanted!

THIS IS NOT RIGHT!!

2005-11-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

THIS IS NOT RIGHT!!
ok. let's get something clear first. im not trying to break u up with your friends. i dun mind if u spend time with them. BUT must it be now? do u know what u have tomorrow? u have your MOCKS!! for goodness sake. does tat mean nothing to you? u made me a promise u know? im really disappointed at u n them,how can they be so unconsiderate? aiyer! i hate it! u know that i care alot bout u rite?must u do this or not? haih. im already so worried bout u and yet u still wanna do this to me. i can't take it ar. i promised your mom i would take k of u n God Damn It... I WILL!!why why why!! haih.. yet once again you have left me speechless.. please take k...study hard n muax!! love u...dun take this the wrong way ok?

2005-11-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

All Alone...At Home!! yeah!!
parents and sis left for New Zealand this afternoon leavin me and my 85 year old grandpa at home for 3 weeks! im so going to miss my family. its not fair that they get to go and i don't! UNFAIR! but come to think bout the bright side. i have the house all to myself for 3 weeks! so many things i can do. first thing,invite my friends over for a sleepovers and chill out times. wine n heineken WILL be involved. haha. and i'l be goin out with my best friend for a typical guy's night out. a visit to the club's snooker room. hehe. i miss my friend so much man. i'v not seen him for a long time d. we'l be having a long guy talk. haha.

miss them miss them miss them miss them!! will be alone for so long!! argh!! have fun dear. be careful ok? yeah! i received a parcel from my sis's dutch boyfriend! but unfortunately i can't open it until the 5th of december!! argh!! that date is a festival the dutch celebrates 'Sinter Klas' where they give one another a small gift! but let me tell u this. the parcel is BIG!! muahaha. so lucky that my sister has a dutch boyfriend. so fun!

what is love?

2005-11-23T18:06:00.000+08:00

WHAT IS LOVE??
i think iv found the answer to a long asked question....'WHAT IS LOVE?'
love...is a gamble...u gamble ur heart,ur life,ur friendships,ur trust,u tend to put ur relationship on the line. not only the rel between u n ur spouse but also with everyone else. dun u think? if u screw the rel between u n ur gf, ul screw everythin wif ur friends. n u dun jz lose ur loved ones. u lose everything. thats why its a gamble. its either u WIN or u LOSE!! is it worth it? u ask. well. its up to the person to my opinion.

somethings in life

2005-11-23T13:16:00.000+08:00

Somethings In Life
there are just somethings in life that is not worth my time. its much better if if i do my own things without worrying whether u all think its right or wrong. at least now i know that my friends hate me but do u know that u dont even know ppl hate u? pls la at least go n look at urself first la before judging ppl. dont ever think that u r perfect. i never say that i'm perfect. i know i have my own flaws. at least i dun hide from them. i face them...do YOU??? u go around thinkin tat u r miss perfect n tat u hafta be the centre of attention n holdin ur nose up high. wth is tat man. haih. i cant believe tat there are ppl that act like u. they hafta be blind n stupid to do so. or DESPERATE. well. lets see how long u can hold on to THIS rel. all the best. u r gonna need it.

the HELL with LOVE

2005-11-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

the HELL with LOVE
s i was jz sayin earlier...the HELL wif love...it does nothin but hurt hurt hurt n HURT!!! my fault again...but not all mine...but too bad ppl are either too ignorant n blind to c it or bcz friendship forced them to c wat they wanna c n feel wat they wanna feel till they think tat they are rite...how can they??they dun even noe wats goin on??they jumped to THEIR conclusion s fast s u can say '1'... u think i like to hurt ppl??wat do u think i am??if i like to hurt ppl...do u noe wat u like to do??think bout it la..if u thnk tat u r normal??then id noe who u r...n wat kinda person u r...the mask u put on everyday for col..n the true u...deep down...haih..i dun wanna name names..iv caused enuf havoc...none more than u guys hv...so im sorry....i dun expect any apologies from u all...but do take k of her....n believe it or not...i do love her...as much or more than u guys is up to u to decide....

WHY DO PPL BLOG???

2005-11-22T20:43:00.000+08:00

Why Do People Blog?
is it for fun? to vent ones anger? to scold someone not lettin tat guy noe tat u r scoldin him? hmm...y DO i blog?? well...honestly sayin...i started cz iv been really fan bout things happenin in col... certain groups of ppl causin probs...n since tat the prob has been resolved,iv not been bloggin d...but the inner me feels tat iv cheated on my blog...like iv used it n now tat im not using it anymore..im gonna throw it away...i feel bad....hehe...so..im bk...AGAIN...

recently i had so much fun attendin my physics tuition...not cz of physics but wat we talked bout durin class...we touched so many things...hehe...erm..dun think sick ok?we talked bout religion,politics,science,philosophy,education n so much more...hehe....as for christianity,we talked bout Jesus's second comin n my lecturer said tat its gonna happen in our generation...i believe so too...judgin by all the chaos happenin around the world...ppl killin ppl...ppl torturin ppl...ppl killin the enivronment...ppl causin so many viruses n plagues...WE ARE DYING!!! aint tat cool?? let me ask u a question to ponder on... 'if u knew tat the world is goin to end some time in ur life time, wat r u gonna do now??' haih...wat has the world come to??

for education...we talked bout how stupid education in SUNWAY COLLEGE is so STUPID!! esp CIMP for those tat is unfamiliar with tat term,its the same as Canadian Pre-U...its so stupid because tat so called programme consists of 70% work...u noe wat tat means??it means tat if all those brainlesss students can copy their homework well enuf without teacher catchin them, they will pass their programme...or better...even Ace it...how stupid is tat??n we A-levels students hafta work our butts off for a future tat exists!! they r only lyin to themselves...so CIMP students out there...haih....i pity u guys....hehe...we oso talked bout SAM...south ausralia matriculation...aka Saya Akan Mati programme tat is filled with syllabus tat is so LOST!! lecturers pickin topics from allover our A-level syllabus..students there complain its so hard n complicated...well...duh!!!of course it is??u wont noe tat its a donkey's ass by lookin at the ass only rite??

haih...LOVE HURTS...as most of u guys out ther already noe...i m still amazed by how pppl react towards LOVE...they are willin to do anything for it...even if it hurts themselves...n though they r hurt by the ones they love...they will still find it in them to forgive them n continue with their love life...haih...iv hurt so many in my time cz of love...to all of u...im deeply sorry...i truly am...if i had the choice n power..i wud turn bk time to fix things...i WUD!!iv had enough of love...hv i???n now i find ppl torn apart cz of it...not accepted by the ones they love...they then seek suicide as s way to be free from things....its stupid!!!!!!!!!!so u noe wat i say now??
THE HELL WITH LOVE!!!!!!!

im back!!! haaachachachachachaaa......

2005-11-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

sorry..iv not been bloggin lately...its not like alot of ppl looks at my blog...hehe...well reason iv been away for so long is due to none other than being SICK!!! my gosh...last saturday was terrible yet WONDERFUL in a way..il tell u y later...saturday mornin after droppin my 'lovin' sis to school...i woke up poor viv from her sound sleep to go out for breakfast wif me...muahaha...thanx n sorry viv...u r gettin thin ar viv....eat more!!!by then i was already feelin heaty n weak n sore allover d...but i ignored viv's advise to miss that morning's fencing lesson..n so i went for it..n gosh i was so weak by then i lost to a girl 2 to 10!!! so humiliating!!i wanted to keep my mask on for the rest of the day..hehe..anyways..it was a good lost...she's a hot chick...hehe!!im serious...but downside is she is only 15 n she's a malay...but she look s like a 18 year old chinese...im SERIOUS!!haha...then after fencing i went out wif a few fencing fwens to celebrate one of their bdays..haih...SO MANY ppl's bday!!haih...i smell something burning!!n its comin from my pocket!!!haha....when we were in mv...my body temp sore through the roof!!i bumped into my fwen's hand she freaked out..she actually felt the heat from my hands!!aint tat cool????or is tat HOT!!!haha....i was about to pass out d...n it was so torturin for me to drive bk man...so dangerous...i immediately went to viv's place n took a short nap...she gave me medicine to coool down my fever..n i slept on her comfy bed for more than an hour..so nice of her!!love ya!!muax!!thanx so much!!!tats the wonderful part of my day...hehe...muax!!i wanna go n sleep there again!!haha...after tat i act hadd a 3 hour tuitioN!!can u believe it!!the lecturer wanted to stop the class cz there r two students are sick includin yao jun...i hope he is feelin beta now...but we manage to get through the whole class...muahaha...so proud...basically wat happened nx was....ZZzzzZZzZzZzZzzZzzzzZ..........

its NOYB u noe??

2005-11-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

im sure tat u all k n worry bout us....but u dun realise wat u r doin....haih....u r only givin me more pressure...wat do u want from me!!! jz let us be!!! we'l sort it out ourselves ok??? n i dun hurt ppl for a livin ok??who the hell those??im sorry if i offended anyone..i jz wanna express my feelings n hope tat u und...thanx for ur care...i appreciate it...but i need time for myself to think clearly..i dun wanna hurt anyone further...i dun wanna regret for my actions now...ok??

PICS FROM IPOH ROAD TRIP

2005-11-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

*ROAD TRIP!!! me,lee chee,chi jian,joxy n zu yi*

* the TWO SIZZLING HOT CHICKS at the back seat...zuyi & joxy*

*i really do SWEAR!!* hehe....

*drenched shy girl...guess who??*

*lil joxy n me posin outside viv's house...ITS HUGE n very HOMEY!!!*

*muahahaa ...loosen up uncle...hehe...*

*boys WILL b boys ...haha...monkeyin around on top of kellie's castle..*

*viv's totally awesome aunt,viv n me!!! at a restaurant along jalan pasir putih or something like tat for lunch..we love u aunt wendy!!*

Lesson 1!!

2005-11-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

today is vivi's first lesson behind the wheels...hehe...i brought her to my old school's carpark n i gave her the wheels...for a first timer...shes good..haha...she'l b beta nx time...no doubt..i put my socks n bottles on the floor around the car park so tat she can follow them...she ran over my socks TWICE!!n oso the bottles...haha...poor socks..but it was great fun la..
nx lesson will b nx sunday....im lookin forward to it...keke...do u think i shud teach how to park now??haha...dun want my car to end up on the tree ler...muahahaaa...jk...u r good k viv....

you cant treat her like tat!!!

2005-11-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

NO U CANT!!!
U dun jz say all the mean n hurtful words bout her, u even avoided her phone calls n msgs....u noe y??cz she loves u!!she cares about u!!!she wants to explain to u wat went wrong...but u NEVER gave her a single chance to do so...u said tat u dun ever want to befriend her anymore...then one day...u call her bk sayin tat u love her???? WTF!!!u din even apologize!!!she cried endlessly for u!!!i hv no idea y!!! u r not worth a single tear!!!u USED her!!!i wont forgive u cz uv hurt me enuf d...but u r lucky she will...n one more thing...look at ur att la...ARE U REALLY BETA THAN ME???God noes....

week of SURPRISES....

2005-11-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

DATE:1st NOV 2005
TIME:11.50 pm...

'ring ring....ring ring....'my phone rang....i picked it up n it was cc on the other side...he called to ask me to pass him something...guess wat it is... a RAVOR!!! huh???? a lil LOST rite??heheh...so i said ok lo..he said tat he is out n tat he needs a ravor...n so ok lo..i knew tat something was bout to happen d la...a lil too obvious dun u think???keke

DATE:2nd NOV 2005
TIME:0.00 am....

cc arrived at my gate...i found him standing on his dad's naza ria...hehe...lee chee holdin a birthday cake wif lit candles...then they started singing the birthday song..hehe..i started blushing d...chris was standin behind her n cc was still up there jumpin n waving his hands..hehe...they parked the car on the middle of the road...hehe...i went out to greet them n i was very surprised!!!yes i m viv!!!hehe...wait..it doesnt end there....then when i was standing there...viv popped out from behind!!i was so shocked!!i hugged her immediately..she came down from ipoh jz to celeb my birthday....i tot they all forgot..hehe...in the car...i saw my bday gift...hehe..a cage wif two dwarf hamsters in it..hehe...so cute!!! i still dunno wat to name them yet la....hehe....they are so sweet!!!thank u TCC... thank u Lee Chee... thank u Chris... n of course...thank u VIV!!! i love u all!!hehe...they left shortly after..hehe..then i went bk into the house where my family was waiting for me to celeb my birthday...hehe..2 cakes!!!muahahahaaa...they got me a cheese choc from secret recipe....yummmy...hehe....but i prefer CC's...its not so creamy...hehe...

DATE: the rest of the day...
i went to 1u wif viv,lc,cj & zu yi...shae ree n jimmy joined later on...we ate at chilis..my first time!!hehe...its nice...portions is big...but no biggie la..dun c wats so special...wanted to go to wong kok to try the huge ying yong though..but didnt wanna change viv's plans...hehe...she's so sweet to go through so much trouble for me...after lunch viv n i watched 'all about love'..wished tat others cud join but they all didnt wanna...so sad...haih....but still...i really appreciate wat they did for me...hehe...while watchin tat movie,gues who started cryin!! VIV!!!haha...she started sniffin non-stop in the cinema..hehe...its sad la tat show..i teared abit too..hehe...
after tat movie...i bought midnight movies for my sis, viv n me for GOAL!!...the day is stil young!!haha...
it was aroud 7 d after movie..so i asked ki ho n barry(our friends from Millenium Court) out for korean dinner...hehe..it was great!!i miss it so much!!we drank some korean alcohol..called sio jiew so something liek tat..21% alcohol content...barry drank a shot n his face turned red..hehe...viv drank half a shot n her face turned red d....hehe..i drank 3 shots in total n im stil ok!!hehe..viv got a lil drunk..she started talkin to herself...hehe...she's very cute la..hehe...i miss her so super much!!hehe...i went to mc for awhile n i fell asleep on viv's bed n her roommate's bed as well..hehe....dun tell her k..hehe
later tat night..we watched goal till 2 in the mornin...i fetched her bk n tats about all i gues...hehe...my 18th birthday.... :)

p.s:im grateful to hv friends like u guys!!

over n out,
sam

The 'surprise'

2005-11-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

wuahhaahaha...i love surprises...so theres no doubt tat i love to give surprises as well..hehe...i planned a surprise for me dear viv for 2 days b4 i surprised her...hehe..i was fan though...but afta it succeeded,it is all worth it..hehe...so..this is wat happened..vivi is in ipoh now TCC n chris...they r havin holds there...nobody knew of our(joxy,zu yi,lee chee,chi jian, n ME) arrival other than viv's mom..hehe...i had help from her..hehe...
here's how it went...

7.30 am.
i woke up n started packing...a bottle of ribena for the trip n some extra clothings in case we are goin to sunway lagoon in ipoh...hehe
7.50 am.
i fetched my sis to school..n from there i went straight to lc's house n picked her up..i kinda got lost..hehe...but eventually i found it...in the mean time cj went to pickup zu yi from her house...we're set to meet up at jox's hs at 915...but me n lc were late..hehe...
9.20 am.
zuyi called n said tat they were in an acc...i was stunned n disappointed cz i tot my plan wudnt succeed now..but we found out tat it was a hoax n i got pissed...hehe....so we reached jox's house d...n we were off...1st thing we did...we pumped up our car wif a full tank of petrol....n they chose CDs tat will b played on the journey there...hehe...n it started rainings cats n dogs so a safe driver like me drove slowly n carefully...hehe...
9.45 - 11.45 am.
we were on the road..stopped once cz jox needed to use the loo..hehe...n we were singing westlife songs inside the car...well..jox did..but lc was very very quiet...shes shy...hehe...jox was singing at the top of her lungs...jox,zu yi, n cj sat behind..they were so noisy...argh.....now i noe wat my dad felt last time...hehe...i drove like 120 n 110..didnt wanna b caught by cops...so it took me around 2 hours to reach ipoh..n we got some help from viv's mom to get to her house...she's so good!!!!!!!i love her!!!!hehe...
12.00 pm.
we reach the hs d...n all of us hid behind the door while the mom called viv out to 'help her wif some stuff off the car'hehe...she's good at lying...hehe..then when she was walkin out...lc said 'oh...shes coming shes coming...faster...' then we all stuck to the wall s if we were stuck to it..then when she walked out..we shout ' SURPRISE!!!!! ' at her...n she got so shocked n hid her face...haha...we were all laughin but i think viv was cryin...haha....awww.....then she started huggin everyone of us...hehe...she got the surprise all rite...hehe...she looks really cute....haha...i miss her so much..she jz went bk on sunday n i had to see her on monday d...hehe...her hs is HUGE!!!!hehe...her dog(super) is so cute too...its so small!!!haha...but its sick.. :( poor lil fellow...n her maid too is sick..i hope she gets well soon....
12.30 pm.
the mom brought us out for lunch at some restaurant at pasir putih!!(cj!!!remember???)haha...the noodles there are spicy...but VERY DELICIOUS!!!hehe...cj kept buggin us bout kellies castle...he wants to go there!!!but after lunch we went to pick up viv's long awaited IC to be collected,she even got a fine for picking it up late...hehe...so like viv...haha...but then we found out tat the building shifted elsewhere ages ago d so cant pick anything up...haih...
2.00 pm.
we went to jeanie's hs but she is out cz she needed to rescue cc cz he got lost on the way to her house..haha...me n lc got tired of waitin so we went to the ipoh swimming club for drinks....it was drizzlin then...she dared me to jump into the pool but i didnt want to...i wanna look good...not like a wet dog...hehe...the pool there is small compared to tropicana's..hehe..the length of the pool in ipoh is shorther than the width of the pool in tropicana..haha...but tat place is rather serene la...hehe...
3.00 pm.
soon afta we went bk to jean's hs again n i felt like we r wastin time ther cz we haffta leave at around 7...n cj continued buggin us bout kellies castle...hehe...so i rushed them off la... (chris,vivian,lee chee) sat in my car..we blasted HOT samantha's music..hehe..i opened my moon roof n lc stuck her head out ...hehe...she loves to do tat i hv no idea y...hehe...she looks funny up there...haha...it took us awhile to get to the castle...hehe..but its very nice la tat place...very big..bad a very sad story behind it all la...haih...cj was hopin to b able to take snap shots of ghosts there...haha...he is disappointed...
5.00 pm.
when we were at the castle,it started rainin n zu yi got really wet cz she didnt wanna use the umbrella...shes very stubborn...haih....n she started shivering...we tried to warm her up by givin her a group hug...hehe..hope it worked...haha...then we left for clearwater sanctuary...n MY GOSH!!! tat place is SPECTACULAR!!ul hv to c it for yourself!!!hehe...i love tat place...cj n i r plannin to come down n stay in the chalets in d hols...hehe...its really romantic viv....muax!!
6.00 pm.
from there we(car A:me,viv,chris,lee chee,zu yi) followed them(car B:jean,cc,jox,cj) to buy some biscuits...supposedly very famous i ipoh....jean drove really recklessly n i told her off when she was pumping petrol...while they were fillin up,i changed seats wif lee chee...she drove...hehe...its not tat i dun trust her drivin or anyting but im afraid tat if anything happens...she'll feel really bad n im oso afraid tat she cant get use to my car yet..but anyways she did fine..hehe...congrats chee...hehe...i trust u now...haha...so we bought some biscuits called 'lou po beng' means wife biscuits...n 'lou gong beng' which means...yes u guessed it...husband biscuits...kakaka....
6.30 pm.
we reahced viv's hs n her mom went off to the restaurant to order the food IN ADVANCE!!!my gosh she is so GOOD!!!hv i mentioned tat she is hot s well??? hehe...we were at home waitin for viv to bathe n when we wanted to leave, we lost the house door key...hehe...n we were left scowling around for tat key...haih...it got really frustrating...we searched virtually EVERYWHERE!!!AaArrRrggGhhh!!!!!toilet,bags,under chairs,under tables,drawers,pockets,we wasted alot of time there...*its in viv's cupboard..hehe..she found it there later tat day*...we ended up using the back way out..hehe...then we rushed to the restaurant...its a seafood restaurant called restaurant bukit tambun...hehe
7.10 pm.
we started eatin afta everyone has arrived..guess wat!! we started wif OYSTERS THE SIZE OF YOUR FREAKIN PALM!!!! hehe its so super delicious!!! i had one n a half..shared it wif lc...hehe...she loves it too..viv had 2!! :( *jealous*..haha..then the entrees jz kept comin n coming n coming...they are all so mouth watering...cj kept repeatin 'IPOH IS HEAVEN,KL IS HELL!!' hehe...throughout the whole dinner..hehe...it is!!!i love ipoh!!!hehe...the food is awesome!!!!hehe...we had cockels,LOBSTERS!!,muscles,fish,vegies,crabs!!my gosh..i told the aunt tat we ate all the marine life d....then everyone started laughin...haha...afta tat unforgettable meal, we took pics outside the restaurant for remembrance...then we hugged one another n said good bye..i had to rush for my tuition tat starts at 8 till 11 n when we left,it was already 845....haha..again i let the moonroof down n lc n jox stuck their head up and shouted at viv's car in front cz they were leadin the way to the highway...they kept shoutin 'viv we love u!!! & we love u aunty!!!' hehe....they r so cute!!!...darn..i feel bad!!!at the end i missed it...haih..
8.50 pm.
off we go again...i drove faster this time cz there arent many cops at nite...hehe..i drove like 140 to 150...car rox!!!joxy was sound asleep...hehe...cj stayed up to keep me awake by hand feedin me dodol...hehe...we reached around 1045 n my cousin asked me out for snooker..so i went out again...then got home at 1...didnt hv mood to play..cz so darn tired...hehe...i jz went onto my bed n slept!!!din even get ready for it...hehe....well..tats all...haha...i had so much fun!!!!!

over n out,
sam

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2005-10-30T14:02:00.000+08:00

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Am i HAPPY ???

2005-10-29T11:15:00.000+08:00

ytd is a day tat i wont wanna forget so quickly..so i wanna post it down asap so i wont forget n miss out anything..kekeke....
it started off like any other fridays but today wif a plot to surprise our own darlin Li Xia as her birthday was ytd...hehe....so..after our identities test given by our very own-one of a kind-Dr. Goh Seng...hehe....Li Xia,Anusha,Penny & not to forget...ME!! hehehe...3 girls n 1 boy...hehe...not surprisin...hehe...we took the next bus to Petaling street...tats my first time goin there wif fwens..hehe..tat was the first time anusha is there as well..n oso her first time takin a public tranportation but for penny n li xia..it all seems too familiar for them...hehe...ok...so when we got there, we started scowling the streets for Genuine Fake Cheap Branded Goods...hehe...we walked around for 3 hours... n byt he end of the day..i came to a conclusion tat we boys mite be good runners,athletes marathon runners for all i care....BUT!!we will never...never ever be beta than the girls when it comes to shoppin...every 15 mins..i gotta sit or squat to rest...hehe..but them??they'l jz keep on walkin like nobody's business...hehe...ok...cut to the chase..me i bought two shirts,3 CDs (usher,il divo n a compilation cd..) i got the il divo for zu yi...hehe..she loves it...anusha bought a plaboy top, a 'DENIAL' top accordin to jon cz it wrote 'sexy girl' on the top n 2 CDs...hehe...penny got a belt for her bro..so sweet...a few shirts...n other stuff la...li xia bought CDs s well n shirt...hehe...at 1 o'clock, my driver picked us up from there n went to mv for the so called surprise...haih...things were messy..we went to all stars cafe n met up wif ezati n janelle??sorry if i misspelt ur name...then jon,neil,lc,viv,sam,donald,daniel,joxy,shae ree,zu yi,elaine,tcc showed up to give the surprise...but li xia didnt seem surprised at all...haih...plan 1 failed...then many of us went to play pool when we got bored...n some sat n ate...then when its time for the cake...the staff there act lost it!!hehe..but eventually they found it bk...kkekeke..then we were suppse to set up the cake while li xia is away playin pool but half way doin so she showed up!!!so ...plan 2 failed!!haih....afta meals...zuyi n viv like keep wanting me to go to the euro fun park wif them but i really had to go home but they kept askin me if im going...haih...so i ended up going la...another reason i din really wanna go cz i go for it every CNY att my hometown...its ntg new to me la act..the rides n stuff are all the same..i actually memorized all of the ride's name d..hehe...i only went for the euro wheel wif lc,zuyi, n viv cz we wanted to rest our legs but ended up gettin DdiiZzZzY..hehe...i oso went to the haunted house..i went wif viv..she got so scared to she pulled me all the way bk..almost OUT from the ENTRANCE!!!hehe...cz of this guy tat started chasing us...hehe...he's kinda scary i admit..hehe...afta tat...the guys n girls went for a few more rides while me n viv sat down n relaxed...we chatted n chatted till it we got bored n went to walk around...we saw this really cute baby girl!!!she kept starin at me n smiled...lc carried it while we took pics of them...hehe...the baby din wanna kiss lc but kissed zu yi twice!!i wonder why..hehe...samantha had to leave early cz the mom scolded her or something..n i think she's grounded...poor thing...i think i will soon..hehe...around 11 when i wanted to go bk, i found out tat zu yi werent feelin well cz she had gastric pains...so i decided to stay n fetch her bk home...so me n viv went to buy her something to eat n fetched her home...then jimmy fetched me n viv bk from her house to taman tun's mamak to meet up wif the rest of the gang..by tat time it was already to reach 1o'clock...i wanted to spend more time wif viv n lc...but they called a cab for me to go home d....haih...so i had to leave la...when i got home was already about 2....hehe....so BUMMED out!!hehe...i bathe n i crashed..hehe..tats about all i think...hehe..havin a sore n tired leg now..i missed my fencing class cz it wud be of no use...how to fence wif one leg!!hehe....

viv n lc n cj n the other ppl went to asia cafe last nite till 5 accordin to viv....whoah..they had a much longer day than me man...hehe...i was so worried bout them tat i din really sleep wel last nite...dun u think tat theres somethin goin on wif cj n lc???haha...it seems all too suspicious..hehe....anyways...

p.s: JOX!! your massage ROX!! lookin forward to our next apointment....hehe
p.p.s: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LI XIA!!!

over n out, Sam

who ARE we??

2005-10-29T10:58:00.000+08:00

who ARE we
~ to say wats rite n wats wrong??
~ to judge who deserves to be a friend or not??
~ to hv the rite to do wateva we want??
~ to do wat we r doin??

if u ask me..i think there is a problem in our society now..mostly amongst teenagers like myself..i feel tat we take every single thing for granted..we oughta be thankful for the blessing tat our parents hv given us...dun u think??they grant our wish of havin an educated life...they support us in our lives...they come bk home everyday from work wif food on our table to sustain us for another day...they work so hard for the very shirt tat we are wearing as of this instance...but WHY!!! WHY!!! why do we take it for granted??ask urselves...are u makin use of the education tat ur parents hv given u??are u wasting it away??we shud be very happy n feel blessed...cz not everyone are like us...in fact my dad is now supporting another persons life in china..he is sponsoring tat girls education for the next 6 YEARS!!!when i look at him in the eyes when he told us(family) tat..i see no regrets..no fear..no doubt tat the girl will do well...i can tell tat he is glad tat at least his money is not gone to shreds...unlike wat im doin...haih...i really need to start studyin for my future...dun we ALL!!!time passes really quick...EDUCATION....tat IS THE KEY to unlock our future...dun waste it...ul regret it....

p.s:viv......dun leave KL!!!chee n i wan u to stay!!!or she'l kidnap u...plz...im sure u can work things out...muax!!!love ya....

TIRIN day for sammy

2005-10-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

wat a day!!Phew!! i left the hs at 7 in the mornin to get viv some breakfast from ss2 n...(some char siew pao n kuih)hehe..she likes it...tats y she gave it all away!!hehe...jk...she shared it wif zu yi,lc n saved a very very spec of scrap left for me...hehe...poor me.. i oso fetched her to col..whoah...amazingly she got ready on time!!!haha..i had chem class today...(finished the whole syllabus today..yeepee!!!) then after math at 12, eugene aka pussy, jon , shae rae n me went to DOTA!!!i partnered eugene...hehe...we kicked ass!!sorry shae rae if i was TOO DARN GOOD FOR YA...hehe...jk....u r pretty damn good urself..hehe....*applause*hehe....then along wif anusha n caroline, we rushed bk to col...hehe..made it for class!!wat to do..my drivin so darn good...hehe...jk....then immediately afta class....*freedom*!! hehe...me n zu yi went to IKEA to meet up wif the girls....hehe...includin pony n derek....hehe..jk...viv,lc,jox,shae rae were all there...when i got there,lc was playin a smackin hand game wif pony...they were makin so much NOISE!!!ppl started starin at us 10 tables away...hehe...givin us an unpleasant look..hehe..then lc played wif me....i manage to smack her twice out of at least 20 times!!others she jz kept smakin me cz i suck at scissors,paper,stone...hehe...but she said tat i hit very hard...i wasnt even usin strength act...hehe..she said its far more painful than pony's n derek's...hehe...im strong!!haha...jk...jz applyin physics into it..haha...sorry dear chee...muax!!on ur hand....hehe...it swelled up!!hehe...then i played wif viv but i dun hv the heart to hit her cz her hand is very fragile....hehe...then due to the extremely annoyin noise comin from the gang,they decided to play truth or dare...we ended up darin pony to kiss derek on the chicks, viv runnin around the whole cafe area...chae rae to jump 3 times to try n touch the ceiling in front of everyone...hehe..then we stopped cz..its still too noisy...haha...funny gang..

then me n zu yi left half an hour later..oh..not to forget those DELICIOUS HOTDOGS!!!heheh...i got 2 for me n 1 for zu yi..hehe..she likes it...Pheww....later on i dropped her bk in main block i n sped off for my fencing class again...hehe...so tirin...my coach is so harsh on the boys...no fair!! haih....we are after all trainin for SUKMA!!hehe..im still the alpha male there..hehe...not too cocky now samuel...hheeh..they beta not read this man..hehe....my arms are so bummed out now..hehe...after class i went to MC to meet up wif viv for dinner...well act she jz watched me eat..hehe...so sweet...keke...i gobbled everything down then rushed for my physics tuition again...hehe....oh wait...b4 tat...viv said tat my arms are so MUSCULAR!!!haha...yeah!!!my head kembang d...tonight cannot sleep d...hehe...muax!!miss ya much much...my gosh!!wat a day??so tiring la...i jz got bk btw...hehe...so i think tats all for now ok??muax!!sweet dreams n good night...n zu...drive safely!!u too chee....always wear your safety belt ok???if not viv willl scold..hehe

p.s: something for u guys to think about... 'IS MOODLESS A MOOD??'
hehe...let me noe wat u think...

over & out..sam

i felt the sun's warmth!!

2005-10-26T17:31:00.000+08:00

For weeks now iv not been able to feel the tenderness of friends for friends...today..i did...thanx viv so much!!!muax!!love ya!!hehe...sorry din listen to u earlier...il b ok in no time...hehe...
n my dear yiling..plz cheer up... :) i noe wat u r going through...iv been there...dun worry..u can get through this...like i hv... :) let me be ONE of the many friends of yours to give u a shoulder to cry on ok??u noe....when i feel like tearing/cryin,il think of something funny like erm.... say En. Ng Kok Yew wearing the Ronald McDonald costume...hehe...tat'l definitely send a chill down your spine...hehe...dun fret bout anythin k??muax!!
~dun cry because it ended,smile because it happened~ ;)
I LOVE ambi pur!!hehe...pei wen...ur car smells darn nice man...hehe...drive it safely k??dun end up like me...TWO accidents in ONE week!!hehe...as the saying goes..boys will b boys..hahaa...

p.s: yiling...or mebe u can imagine Ng Kok Yew gettin kicked betweeb the legs like in the pic above...hehehahahhahehehaha...SMILE ALWAYS!!

a regular boring day.....

2005-10-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

BORED!!! haih...
today's day is like every other...boring...didnt get to c viv today...worried bout her tummy...alot! :( but i did get to spend some time wif zu though...y are there so many things happening in col tat i dunno bout??i feel so darn outdated...why is it so??
only if u guys can und wat im goin thru now...im feeling really confused bout my feelings!!...hence....heartless!!!!!

i feel very lost man...wakin up every mornin without aim..without point of continueing on with my life!!!but i dun wanna leave this life!!its great!!i hv so many great fwens in my life...but y do i always let them down??im sorry..i love u guys...muax!!

2005-10-25T11:28:00.000+08:00

Does Time Heal All??
well...does it??tats a question tat iv been tryin to answer myself...DOES IT???some trick themselves into thinkin tat it does in order to give themself hope..well..im one of them..n tats wat i tell my fwens too..i guess..time DOES heal..BUT!!!not completely...scars from the past is important...it shows u tat the past is real...learn from your mistakes...iv failed to learn so...until now...iv been so hurt bout wat happened between me n my ex...i still think of her at times...but i dun really miss her..in fact...i don't!!!iv continued on wif my life...everyone shud...now im worried bout my dear jox...shes goin through a really hard time now...i wish for the best for her n tat He will grant her the strength to carry on wif her life.. :) hehe...iv got new things to think about...new things to care about..new friends to care about??hehe...iv made alot of new friends n im grateful for them...every single one of them...i love them all lots!!! though tat there has been misunderstandings n conflicts...i still love u guys....muax!!!