Thursday, March 16, 2006

its me again. miss u b.

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7:43 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

SURPRISES...
surprises surprises, this weekend is FULL of it!! this just happened like 30 mins ago.. hafta blog bout it! hehe. i was quietly sitting at my desk doing C4 math when someone knocked on my door, i thought it was my grandma so i asked her to come in but she didin't so i walked to the door and opened it. well what do you know. i had the surprise of my life! Gein, Elaine and of course my hon was at the door!! i was so stunned for a moment. i didn't know what to do. i was not wearing any shirt and is only wearing a darn short gym pants.i felt naked!! :P hehe.. i went to change when they hung out in my room. elaine made more jelly for me. its so sweet of her. hehe. thank you! you rock elaine. you too gein. will miss u guys loads next week.. :( they all sat on my bed and we had a lil pillow fight, girlfriends hitting other girl's boyfriend's head for no apparent reason. hehe. but it was fun. then they used my soft toys that i got for my christmas presents and made them play scissors papers stone. hehe. that was kinda freaking me out. and the worse part was i actually took part too! haha. this was all Gein's idea. he went to pick up El then they gave Zu a surprise too and they definitely surprised me!! muah! love you all! pleasure having friends like you guys.

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6:03 PM



DINNER!! YUM YUM!!
today me n gein was suppose to have dinner out nearby elaine's house but they gave us a surprise!! they actually stayed home to cook for us. they cooked spaghetti with cheese sauce i think..hehe.. dunno what is it called. its so DELICIOUS!! and ALOT!! and i thought the portion we had in kijal was alot.. haha.. michelle n others will understand what i mean. hehe. after dinner they made desserts too!! they didn't let us near them because they wanted to give us another surprise. they dished out an ice-cream dessert, vanilla ice-cream covered in chocolate hersheys with sprinkles of more chocolate toppings and chocolate love-letters!! its so beautiful!! its taste great as well! yum yumm!! thank you honey. glad my gf can cook! hehe. feed me dear!! FEED ME!! wait. it didn't stop there. they also made jelly stuff with peaches and natadecoco inside!! again!! perfection!! me and gein ate it all!! haha.. we were stuffed!! gosh i love elaine's room. its so nice! i wanna swap with her!! after that we went to a few playgrounds nearby to chill out. romantic la.. a dark place under the stars.. hehe. what could we have asked for more? my b had a headache so i drove her to somewhere near her house and gein drove my car and followed us. then we cahnged places. i don't normally let people drive my car. only a handful of people can be behind the wheels. my b, gein, michelle and im waiting to see if elaine dares to drive it. haha. gein stayed over at my place again, we stayed up all night playing ps2 and watchin charlie and the chocolate factory. hehe. we slept around 430. we are zombies!!hehe. this weekend. i wont be here d. hope il be back soon!! :( will miss u guys!!

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12:31 AM

Monday, February 27, 2006

FISHING!!!
tat day i went fishing with my dad right after my class at 10. i rushed home anticipating my uncles to be waiting for me to go fishing but turns out that im the one waiting for them. better wait than to be waited for. rite? hehe. around 12, my uncle vincent( related, mom's bro) and uncle michael ( not related, heck of a funny guy, uncle vincent's neighbour) came and my dad followed thier car to PAYA INDAH WETLANDS in dengkil near putrajaya. that place is so beautiful! not as beautiful as the one in ipoh though. CLEARWATER SANCTUARY but i hope one day it will be. we went there and we started fishing. its not the kind of fishing that i had in mind. i thought its the cast and wait kind of fishing but its not!! its the cast and reel back and cast again! like fly fishing! hehe. we spent at least 5 hours fishing but no one got any. uncle michael did but too small so he threw it back in. i nearly got one but the fish is too big and it got under and around some lotus plants and entangled the line before i could pull it up. that was a huge one! but then i kept trying and i finally got one!! first time in my life!! hehe..its called a haruan. i think that is how you spell it. im so happy! then later around 630 another uncle (uncle jimmy , not related, uncle michael's good friend, heck of a funny guy) came and he started fishing. 20 mins in and he already caught 3 FISHES!! i was like WTF!! i claimed those fishes to be mine because he took my hook! haha. evil me. before i started fishing i already told myself, if i manage to catch one, i wont go to taman negara and if i don't catch one, i will go. but since now that i caught one, ITS SO FREAKING ADDICTIVE!!! i'm goin to taman negara d, 3 nights 4 days camping in the wilderness, a place with no signal and fishing everyday!! thats wat i call hardcore fishing man. hehe. im thirsty for more!! muahaha.






pic taken by Fakur ( taman negara ranger that is there to do some research) darn friendly guy.. hehe. he asked me to pose this way. hehe. i look darn weird!that fish will be my lunch soon. fish porridge! muahaha. yum yum.

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5:43 PM

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

muax! its me! hope u dont mind about it. :)

now im going to invade it for awhile. u dont mind rite b?

i miss u.

muax!

gein misses u too.

but i miss u more. ngek ngek ngek.

so now u choose. who u want more? huh?? me or him? =P

*prays hard for him to choose me*

i know la i know la u love me more. muax!

love u too.






ur b.

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8:13 PM

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL??
a thought struck me bout blogs.. they can be a perfect place to express your feelings, and its also a good place for others to express their feelings.. knowing how easily blogs can be created, it scares me to find out how the power of blogs are abused..how wud u feel if there is someone out there bloggin bout you? nothin good, only bad stuff?? have you ever thought bout that?? worse if its one of your 'FRIENDS' thats doin it?? how would you feel if the gang you hang out with everyday in college blogs something bad bout you or your friend?? your BF or GF?? how would you feel?? further more, what happens if you found out that someone is bloggin bad stuff bout one of your friend's couple?? what should you do?? should you go tell your friend bout it?? but then it'l only create confrontations between 2 or more parties.. well, let me ask you this, if someone is bloggin bad shit bout your BF or GF or YOU!! would you wanna noe? and find out who ARE your TRUE FRIENDS?? will the one tellin you that there really do exists a blog bout you considered as a TRUE FRIEND?? WOULD YOU WANNA NOE WHO ARE THEY?? they are often not who you think they are.. i personally would like to noe.. so if there are any special blogs dedicated to me.. please let me noe.. there just might be one for you.. if you have things u wanna say bout someone's someone... dun do it to the back!!
again...i wont back stab my other friends but i wont lie to my friends either..

WOULD YOU LIKE TO KNOW?? does it scare to know if your darling has one??




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1:14 AM

Monday, February 13, 2006

- pictures are not in sequence!! soorry for the inconvenience caused :P-teddy wants a sip too!!
our sour face when we reached KL..
kijal 2006!! ( from left : mine, elaine's , gein's foot!)
a taste of what we saw during the sunrise!!
aww..... :( picture speaks a thousand words dun u think??
I LOVE YOU DEAR!!
erm.... bad hair day.. hehe.. im watching the sunrise
while we were waiting for the first sunrise! with strong winds!! i like my pose!! haha...yengness!!
artistic picture hey.. thatas elaine sitting there.. my idea!! haha..
freezing cold!!
gein and elaine killing me in the jacuzzi! haha
my idea too!! haha.. after this picture, he ran for cover!! hehe..
the WONG family!!

picture taken on when we were having a break on the way there..

me, elle, and elaine, after our pillow fight!!

KIJAL TRIP 2006!!
on the 10th,
i woke up early today to get ready for col at the usual time of 6! i barely slept yesterday cause was having butterflies in my stomach!! WHY?? cz im so anxious bout the trip!! i spent a long time yesterday packing things to bring.. from clothings,torchlights,hammock,frisbee,sun block, PS2!!(a must!!), n lots of other stuff..so i went to col for my chemistry class at 8.. immediately after class i went to lc to wait for my driver and the gang to set off!! miss my dear so much!! :(

in the bus i sat wif elle n el sat wif gary! we got bored on the bus so we started playing games. i played the 'think out loud' game wif elle n i was like... HUH!!???!! wat da!!! how can they relate my driver (uncle sam) to a lantern, a car and a freaking pineapple!! wat da!! hahah.. then we went on the the bang bang bang game n again they BULLIED ME!!! :( dun make me bang u ar!! hahaha. 2 hours into the journey the bus driver wanted to take a break so we stopped for awhile n we all got off n took pics of the 4 of us. haha. love em'!!

soon after the bus set off again. n we boarded it. and immediately we got bored again. hahah. so we started gambling on the bus wif gary as the banker, we played 'cho dai dee', 'ah ngao' and 'blackjack'.. i won gary rm35! yeay!! for the first time in my life i won!! haha.. with the help of my teddy of course. haha.. i jinxed the cards wif my teddy! hehe.. michelle look outside the window and kept saying!! 'oh!! i see the ocean!! i see the ocean!!' we were at kemaman then i thinik.. we played till the nx stop n elle asked me to switch places with gary. gee... i wonder why. so i had to come up with some lame excuse to change place with him. another 4 hours into the journey and we are nearing our destination point already n we were all so excited! it is raining then so when the bus stopped by the road for us to get down, we got our luggages and ran for cover!! RUN!!!! haha.. we walked for like 5 mins to our apartment and we were already exhausted!! we settled down in the 3 room apartment, 1 masterbedroom, 1 double bedroom, n 1 single bedroom, of course i let the girls take the masterbedroom.. gary took the single bedroom whereas i took the double bedroom. we made ourselves at home and i they said that the apartment looks like a hotel room!! haha.. great!! joy joy they love the place. then i went outside with elaine to pluck coconuts! hahah its her first time! she sat on my shoulder and i slowly lifted her up so that she can reach the coconuts above n i kept shouting to her 'TURN!! TURN!!' hurryin her cz she is startin to hurt my shoulders...heheh.. we plucked 4! n we then encountered a problem.. how to open them!! haha..we tried using my swiss knife, then we tried using kitchen knife.. but cannot.. so i came up wif a brilliant idea!! i did it the monkey way!! i smacked it on the floor till it broke and we faster collected the water.. SUCCESS!!! but we end up not drinking it at all.. hahah.. wasted man.. having elaine not goin to the beach for the past 2 years, she eagerly rushed us to go to the beach. so we did as told! haha.. dai sek le.. its a 5 mins walk to the beach from where we stay but they didn't mind at all.. phew.. i was afraid that they might not like walking so far!

once we got to the beach, the wind was strong, wave was GIGANTIC!! the most spectacular scene iv ever seen in so many years iv been there. really! the red flag was up so we couldn't swim at all. so all we did was play wif the water. we threw sand at each other too! hahah. everyone ganged up on me!! :( so unfair! while we were playing happily, suddenly michelle cried out behind me. i looked n saw her in pain! she was screaming cause she was stung by a jellyfish!! i freaked out!! OMG OMG OMG!!! wat hv i done!! its all my fault!! we settled her down on a bench n i ran to get help. and soon i went bk to michelle wif a buggy to bring us to the clinic outside.. the driver asked us to tell the clerk that its an EMERGENCY!! so i went up to the clerk n said ' KECEMASAN!!' haha.. iv always wanted to do tat.. haha.. ok not funny.. she went in immediately. everyone was staring at us and a few guys came up to me n said, ' sekarang ombak begitu besar masih main air kah??' haha.. i felt so city boy la..like never seen the ocean b4. haha. the doc laid michelle on the bed and then she(doc) said tat she wanna give her an injection then i can see water flooding michelle's eyes!! then we all got panicky n elaine starting singing to her n somehow we ended up singing the cempaka song, of course i jz stood there..but i remember singing my edited version of duli yang maha something something song.. it goes somthing like ' diu ni ah ma chao hai.......' hahah... darn lots of bad words wan. i cant really remember the lyrics d.. but at least it made michelle smile..hehe..the doc jabbed her butt!! haha.. sorry michelle i had to blog this in.. hehe.. then they went bk when i setttled the bill n i tapau KFC for them i belanja them cz i felt really bad.. i ran bk to see how michelle is doin and she got better later on.. so can see that our vacantion got off a bad start hey..
that night, me and elaine planned not to sleep for what reason i forgot. so we played ps2 and we disturbed gary when he was sleeping to play 'spoon' with us. hehe. so sorry again, it was michelle's idea!! hahah. when he was too tired to play, me and elaine went bk to our games, she totally tapaued me in crash bandicoot, :P around 3, we changed a game, we started playin fatal frame 3!! a ghost game!! my GOD!! what happened next is darn scary!! i tot of switchin off the aircon in the girl's room cz nobody is using it, so after i offed it, there was total silence, when i was walking to the kitchen, me and elaine heard a screech coming from the room and immediately my hair stood up!! i turned and faced the room and i saw the cupboard door open!! i was WTF!! and i ran to elaine and cuddled up next to her and i told her what happened, i asked if she heard it as well. she said yes and we ran into gary's room!! we banged on the door till he opened, we ran inside and sat there quietly, michelle n gary was asking wat happened i wanted to say but elaine stopped me cz we arent suppose to talk bout the 'things' in their presence. after that like a hermit, we slowly crawled put of that room and act as if nothing has happened. i later went into the room alone and spoke to 'it' to calm 'it' down, and assure 'it' that we won't stay long.. GULP!!

we waited for our long awaited friend gein! he came down here late. i didn't give him the proper detail of the place and the wrong direction to the apartment as well!! im so sorry!!! hehe. he ended up stranded on te highway and he had to hitch a rode to my apartment! isn't it cool? he finally got to my place around 445! i was scolding wat took him so long!! and he started swearing bout me not giving him the right directions!! i'm so sorry!! hehehe... NOT!! jk.. he brought wine for the trip and elaine's hair dryer!! so me, elaine and gein is up all night playing ps2.. around 530, we woke up michelle and gary cause we are goin to watch the sunrise!! yay!! we wallked in the dark equiped only by our torchlights we went to the beach, the wind again is super strong and there were droplets of rain. we chilled out at the bench by the beach awaiting the sunrise, michelle was argueing that the sun is not goin to rise over there! i was like... 'WATEVA!!' heheh.. she thinks that the sun rises from the west!! my GOD!! jkjk..

we waited and waited...no sign of any lights yet.. then 2 hours later when we were waiting under a small hut where kids play sand, we saw a glimmer of hope!! so we all gathered by the beach again.. disappointment struck us as the only thing we saw was a blue sky! the sun's rays were blocked by the dark clouds. so sad!! so we headed bk..

when we got bk, i went to a shop nearby with elaine and gein to buy some milk and drinks for breakfast. then we headed bk, michelle and i cooked pastas for the bunch.. gary was still busy sleepin! that's when we formed the 'wong' and 'tan' gang.. hehe. the hardworking, helpful WONG gang and the lazy and slow TAN gang.. hehe.. no disrespect k.. i poked gary's ass with a knife to try and wake him up to eat breakfast but it failed, gein thought of a smart idea to wake him up. he took a candy we bought from the shop and went into the room, then seconds later, gary is up and awake!! HAHAH!!! after breakfast, elaine and gein prepared our lunch, tuna sandwhich.. soon we set off for a days fun.. hehe.. we went to the beach and rented 3 bikes, one is a single, two is a two seater, because our lil elaine doesn't noe how to cycle, she rode with me, while gary and michelle are obviously together, so ein got the single one. hehe. we raced! and it was darn tiring. of course gein won la. but between me, elaine and elle, gary, we WON!! haha.. WONG rules!! hehe. we cycled to a jetty nearby with huge crushing waves! elaine sat at the edge of it and i was horrified to death!! gein sat next to her, so sweet. after a while, we went back to the resort, we continued cycling to another spot i love so much! its firther down the beach where it's rather isolated and rocky, we picked up shells there. nice ones. then when our time was up, we headed back to the place where we rented the stuff. wait.. our day didn't end there, we rented 2 ATVs ( All Terrain Vehicle) so chunted!! of course we raced again! haha.. had so much fun there.. i felt my rash appearing so i suggested we get away from the fridget rain and go into the jacuzzi again, without hesitation, we were in and warming ourselves in the pool. the feeling!! OMG!! insensational!!whilst in the pool i took my medication to get the rash away. hehe. soon after it took effect.. warming our body up felt GREAT!! but sadly, we had to venture back into the rain on our back way home, though it was small.. that night we had dinner outside..chinese food. we couldn't finish the crab so we tapaued it back but we still didn't eat it at the end..
haha.. that night everyone was exhausted!! but we challenged one another not to sleep. hehe. me and elaine was already dozing off now and then. haha. but that GEIN i tell u, he doesn't need to sleep one man!! we wanted to watch long kong, a thai horror movie but my ps2 couldn't play it because its a vcd. so we ended up watchhin BIG FISH!! a weird movie. its so boring that...that...that.. i fell asleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( and gein took pics of me sleeping!! so violated!! ahhaa..jk.. after i slept, elaine fell asleep too!! haha.. gein stayed up to finish watchin that show and he even continued watchin another movie, deuce bigalow european gigolo.. haha.. he woke us up later around 630 to go watch the sunrise, its was already last minute, we thought that we wouldn't make it for it d but we still went, only gei, elaine and i went, michelle n gary were too lazy ( the TANs lo...) hehe.. when we got there.. OMG!! its so beautiful!!
that time we saw the wave aren't big anymore so again we decided to head back early, call the other two and then head out again, today our breakfast is provided by gary and elaine's hardwork. elaine made soup for us, ang gary made fried sausage for us. i ate alot!! cause i'm very hungry!! hehe.. we cleaned up the place afer breakfast and we went to the beach again, this time we walked along the beach and picked up sea shells and i found lala on the floor, live ones, i caught it and showed it to them. it's their first time too!! happy elaine?? haha. we walked to the spot i like and we found more lala on the way there. i think it's their mating season!! jeng jeng. hehe.. i picked up alot of nice shells and i gave some to elaine. we got to the end of the beach d and i realised that i didn't take out my medication!! OH NO!!! how?? soon i found myself experiencing the consequences!! the gang decided to ciao bacak early. so we did! this time we kinda swam in the sea and we played american football. everytime gein got the ball, id charge towards him and wrestle him down, haha.. i think he drank a few gulps of sea water. hehe.. so fun la.. gosh i miss it so much!! we dipped into the jacuzzi again ( we are so addicted to it!!) they were all staring at my rash, can feel their pity for me actually. hey all kept quiet not knowing what to do. it was gettin late so we went back to our room to get ready and wait for the bus. gary and michelle went back to the hotel later to bathe there causes they like the water pressure there. whoah.. so free man they all .. haha.. we went out to the KFC there to tapau some food while waiting for the bus. and im so pissed cz i ordered the wrong food and i can't change it!! waste of money!! argh!! and then michelle spilt my coke on the floor!! WASTED AGAIN!! while waiting for the bus, we gambled again and i won elle's 5 bucks and owe gary 5 bucks so no win no lose la.. haha.. michelle kept saying that the bus is over there though its not a bus at all!! so we decided o shut her up cause she is jinxing us. hehe. guess what!! when she didn't say anythin, a bus came 2-3 mins later!! i sat way behind cause i see gary n michelle are so close d and elaine and gein also so closed together d.. and dun wanna burst their bubble so i sat alone behind.. kinda lonely.. msged my darling!! goin to see her soon!! :) yay!! miss her so much! during the trip, they called me over to their place so i did, i sat on gein's seat while he sat with elaine on her chair... awww... so sweet... HO LUM AR!!! we gambled again and gary was to banker.. we were making so much noise on the bus!! so sorry other passengers!! hahha.. i think the malay sittin next to us is jealous cause he cannot gamble.. haha.. thats what gein said. when we reached a rest place, we drank the sparkling juice that elle brought for us. when gary popped the cork and started pouring the juice, a malay came over and said that we are not suppose to drink it here.. i was like.. wwat do.. its only grape juice la.. we told him that its not alcoholic and he just continued standing there. i was gettin so pissed then good thing he left.. haha. we drank happily then. and hours later, we are back in KL!! :( miss u kijal!! we'l be back soon!!

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11:47 PM

Sunday, February 05, 2006

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! ..... or not.....
ooo... iv been gone for so long.. im so lazy to blog already.. hehe.. hope u peeps out there had a great blast on your cny.. hehe.. wat happened during my cny?? let me see... i went bk to my wonderful wooden kampung house that is slowly being eaten away by termites ( sob sob!!) u can actualy heart them hapily chewing the wood inside door panels, n walls!! my goodness i hope i wont have to come bk one day to find mmy grandma flat on the floor... hehe... choi choi choi.. touch wood... hehe.. i LOVE my grandma though she is illiterate.. she cares for us so much!! she is the best story teller ever!! on the night b4 we left kluang.. she stayed up till almost 2 to tell us bout her past.. she kept talking or hours non-stop... she talked bout how she was suffering because of communists, n how her mom wed her off.. n my gosh!! i din noe this.. she is a twin!! her other twin sister has been given away on birth because her mom couldn't afford caring for two childs.. so sad :( imagine how tat other twin would feel now.. no family background, no sister, no family!! :( alone on CNY!! but word has it that she got morraied to a malay guy n she had 7 kids.. but no one could find her.. my grandma din even wanna find her for some reason...all her suffering touched my deeply.. n made me feel so grateful to have what i have now...

n my uncle too!! i love him!! everytime me n my sis goes back.. he'l wake up early in the morning to bring us out for breakfast to eat thossai at the kluang train station!! yay!!! he sek us alot!! i miss him... he will always leave his moustache whenever we are around cause he can then use it to rub it on us to either tickle us or irritate us to make us wake up.. i dunno which. hehe.. but its fun!! hahah.. he bought us so many fireworks!! so nice of him.. speaking bout fireworks.. this year we were caught playing with fireworks.. so my uncle gave the two 'corrupted policemen' a RM5 ang pau each n a few mandarin oranges.. so nice of him.. if it was me.. id rather take the ticket n call the real 'rasuah police' n report this to them. haha..

i gambled with my two cousins n i end up losing around RM40 bucks.. so sad!! n it got worse.. yesterday i had a party n invited not many.. jon, eugene, joxy, michelle, elaine, gein, steph, justin n of course my darling over.. we had dinner first.. then there was lion dance in our house.. it blessed the whole house!! yayness!! but.. did it work?? read on...... then according to puss, by touching the lion's horns, it'l bring u good luck!! so i touched it!! yayness!! but.. did it work?? read on...... then after the lion dance was over.. we had a spectacular fireworks display right above our heads!! so lovely!! n then the other kids started to play with my lifetime savings of firecrackers... its all gone!!! :) happy to make other ppl smile.. hehe... then the gang went into my room for some gambling sessions.. ok... heres the interesting part!! on the first round.. iv won RM8!! so i thought holy cow!! im so lucky now!! BUT THEN!! so i played on n on n on .... i became the banker of course.. then.. i end up losing approx. RM100.. too gein n jon mostly.. jon won around RM89 is it?? i forgot.. haha... he's so super lucky.. envy him.. i aint gonna mess wit him anymore!!! :( its ok though.. he needs to retake his chem next sem.. so i guess im doing him a favor of lightening his burden.. hehhe. this is wat i call pumping money back into the economy.. :) after the games, i was so sad!! my wallet suddenly felt so light!! sob sob.. sorry u guys if u guys expected more from the party.. jon n eugene regreted coming cz there were better places for them to go.. eugene was suppose to vist his relatives n jon was suppose to be with red bean... sorry for being the spoiler...

after that eugene n gein treated me to yam cha in 'ming tien' in taman megah!! i was so sad tat i drank 2 big glasses of watermelon juice!! haha.. then i fetch eugene back around 1230am.. i was afraid tat the police would catch my speeding so i turned off my light so that they couldnt see my licence plate n so i sped.. around 120km/j coolnesss!! i think i made eugene wet his pants.. haha.. i love this part where i was slowed down by this singaporean driving a merc so i tailgated him, then i suddenly turned my headlights on n then i think i scared him n he immidiately swerved to the other lane!! then i offfed my lights again..!! hahah... sorry zu.. :( wont do it again.. without you.. hehe.. muah!! miss u!!..anyways i reached his house in minutes n he had a new hairstyle by then cz we opened the windows n he stuck his head out of the sunroof.. hehe..after that i drove bk to my house which only took 9 or 10 mins!! so cool!! this time i went 160km/j on the highway.. not to brag bout it ok... but it was darn cool!! hehhe.. reached home.. played some ps2 n slept.. thats bout it!! haha... i guessed i had fun ytd.. get to spend my time with my friends... though i didn't have much.. :P

i miss my darling!! things are getting better between me n my angel.. :) love her!!

over n out,
sam

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2:10 PM

Foul Life

With nice little twist,
I slit my wrist...
Not waiting life to kill,
rather my own blood I spill...
It's my own choice, I have no fears,
only pain, in eyes some unshed tears...
On the floor, blood making stains,
slowly releasing me from my pains...
Bloody stains, stains like in my soul,
caused by all the pain, this life so foul...
Vision finally fading away,
soon it's all done,
staring darkness, oh so black,
soon it's all gone...
Soon I'm released, free from this pain,
suffering and life, it was all just in vain...
Thought, funny how blood makes difference between life and death,
farewell life, so painful, so useless, gonna take my last breath...

FIGHTING

A

LOSING

BATTLE!!

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